I will lose myself

A Poem by shadows

break a heart , create a monster........that's how it goes......be careful

I don't know where to start
the story is just too long
from when it became hard
for our love to stay strong?
or from when you broke my heart
and I had nothing near my lungs ?
or when my hair turned white
from sadness though I'm young ?
I won't just flip to the next page
and pretend you never happened
I can't accept all that change
I tried hard but I couldn't
I can't get over my rage
I know what to do next
it's to lock my soul in a cage
and do all that I didn't
I'll get drunk all the time
and get high on drugs
I'll commit every crime
and forget about your hug
I'll dance on every floor
and set myself on fire
I'll live forever and more
and satisfy every desire
now do you see my pain is too big
and all my nights are way too cold
and even if you want me back and you beg
you'll never be the hand I hold