i think i am a houseplantA Poem by kim grant
i think i am a houseplant
all i've ever wanted was for someone to plant me to watch me grow i've tried to set roots in the driest of soils begging for water begging for anything letting people who've been known to cut their grass too short be the ones to tend to me i never knew i had it in me to demand more to say "this soil isn't for me this is not my home" to uproot myself and go elsewhere and i finally did one day i decided enough was enough only to find myself in another window still sure i get water now this soil is much richer but the sun still burns me a new freedom but still lacking something nobody to move me from the sun when my leaves are scorched or to trim my dry, dying branches i'll admit to staying here too long too a home lacking care is still a home again, i'm afraid to take that step to uproot myself to risk drying out in search of the next place it feels selfish to do so what if i'm missed? forgetting the fact that i'm wilting what if it hurts? ignoring the dull slow pain of drying up what if i feel alone? avoiding the possibility of having to feed myself of having to search for my own pot and window of having to propagate myself for a while i've tried to turn people into gardeners to wait and see if they'll realize i'm choking even now, i remain on a window still where i no longer belong just waiting waiting for anyone waiting for hope of a new start waiting for something to happen it's hard to want what's best for myself especially if it involves knocking my pot down and running with no promise of another garden that being said, you are a gardener no doubt about it whatever responsibility i've hoped that my presence would instill into anyone i already see in you you passed my window once i felt something then i wasn't sure what, but i felt something i should've hopped out of my place that second and ran and ran but i didn't i apologize if this is a projection i apologize for not uprooting myself sooner but if you'd pick me up plant me water me and care for me i will absolutely bloom and do everything to make it worth your time and i hope you know if you find yourself on my window still i will check on you care for you return the favor without having to be asked
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