i think i am a houseplant

i think i am a houseplant

A Poem by kim grant

i think i am a houseplant

all i've ever wanted was for someone to plant me
to watch me grow

i've tried to set roots in the driest of soils
begging for water
begging for anything
letting people who've been known to cut their grass too short
be the ones to tend to me

i never knew i had it in me to demand more
to say "this soil isn't for me
this is not my home"
to uproot myself and go elsewhere

and i finally did
one day i decided enough was enough
only to find myself in another window still

sure i get water now
this soil is much richer
but the sun still burns me

a new freedom but still lacking something
nobody to move me from the sun when my leaves are scorched
or to trim my dry, dying branches

i'll admit to staying here too long too
a home lacking care is still a home

again, i'm afraid to take that step
to uproot myself
to risk drying out in search of the next place

it feels selfish to do so

what if i'm missed?
forgetting the fact that i'm wilting
what if it hurts?
ignoring the dull slow pain of drying up
what if i feel alone?
avoiding the possibility of having to feed myself
of having to search for my own pot and window
of having to propagate myself for a while

i've tried to turn people into gardeners
to wait and see if they'll realize
i'm choking

even now, i remain on a window still
where i no longer belong
just waiting

waiting for anyone
waiting for hope of a new start
waiting for something to happen

it's hard to want what's best for myself
especially if it involves knocking my pot down and running
with no promise of another garden

that being said, you are a gardener
no doubt about it

whatever responsibility i've hoped
that my presence would instill into anyone
i already see in you

you passed my window once
i felt something then
i wasn't sure what, but i felt something

i should've hopped out of my place that second
and ran and ran
but i didn't

i apologize if this is a projection
i apologize for not uprooting myself sooner

but if you'd pick me up
plant me
water me
and care for me
i will absolutely bloom
and do everything to make it worth your time

and i hope you know
if you find yourself on my window still
i will check on you
care for you
return the favor

without having to be asked

© 2020 kim grant


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Thanks for sharing this piece, When that plant mature and knows what she wants or needs. This reminds me of the poem The Little Plant by Kate Louise Brown.

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kim grant
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