You're Not Here

There is a story I want to share, a story that is beyond compare. The story about a love of a mother, and the thing that still bothers her.

As I gave birth to our daughter, the whole world stops like she only matter. 

You could see her green eyes sparkle,  like a cute little marble. 

I couldn't believe I'm a mother now, she is my world I vow. 

But how could you even see her, my dear; when you're not here? 




My heart felt joy when she called me "Mama", so I said: "say it again if you wanna". 

I love how she smiles at me, deep in my heart I sang with full glee. 

The feeling when she wraps her hand on my finger, her warm soft touch will always linger. 

But how could you even feel it my dear, when you're not here? 




She can now stand on her own, but her thighs are still not hard as a stone. 

As she grabs my hand for support, I held it tight as she goes forth. 

Oh how fun it is to watch our baby's steps, and wait what she could do next. 

But how could you even wait with me my dear, when you're not here? 




As she kissed my cheek goodbye, I feel like I'm going to cry. 

Our baby is now a student, a student full of achievement. 

You don't know how much proud I am, as our daughter ace her exam. 

But how could you even be proud with her my dear, when you're not here? 

She graduated now from school, our child is definitely cool. 

She grew up like what we want, a good kid that never let others daunt. 

She never once forget our sacrifice; she knows our love for her is sufficed. 

But how could you even show your love to her my dear, when you're not here? 




There is a new guy in her side, even though thousands of times she denied. 

Our little baby is now full grown, if I could just let it postpone. 

She definitely now knows how to love, she smiles as I let her know our story of love. 

But how could you even help me describe it my dear, when you're not here? 




Now I accompany her as she walks down the aisle, my tears are falling while I smile. 

How could the time flies so fast? As I realize thousands of hurdles we surpassed. 

How wonderful it could be, seeing your daughter smiling from ear to ear.

But how could you even hold her hand as she walks my dear, when you're not here? 

As the moment I step on this stage, I start a speech that remarks opening our child's cage.

As I see her start of new happiness, I suddenly felt my heart's emptiness. 

I remember the day you left, the day I wonder if I should hate you and detest. 

But how could you even know what I felt my dear, when you're not here? 




Until now I wonder if I'm a fool to ask, is staying with us such a hard task? 

How can you let yourself leave, even knowing the news that I've conceive? 

Is it wrong for me to make you choose, saving others or the family you wouldn't dare to lose? 

But how could you even answer me my dear, when you're not here? 




I guess our daughter was wise enough to understand, that her father always reaches out a helping hand 

You wouldn't know how much she wants you here, and hear you say "I am here, my dear". 

I know she dreamt of feeling your love, as she looks up from the skies above. 

But how could you prove your love my dear, when you're not here? 




As my end of speech is drawing near, we never once forget about you my dear. 

I long understood that you leaving is a tough choice, when we are the one you treasured the most. 

As our child will now go, the love and sacrifice you made for us I will let them know. 

Because we will always love and treasure you my dear, even if you're not here .

Author's Note

*photo credits to the owner*

Reviews

[Summer Emswiler]

This is a tear-jerker for sure. The beauty of describing the love and life of a child to then hit you hard with the father not being there. The repetition of the last line of each stanza becomes more impactful as you read the poem.

[Anjali]

this is a beautiful piece of art. i really adored the way you told your story, and i feel really good telling you this that you have won the 1st place in any type of poetry contest! congratulations!

[Kim Jimenez]

Thank you so much! It means a lot! ❤️

[Anjali]

You're welcome!

[louise]

This is absolutely heart-wrenchingly beautiful.

[Kim Jimenez]

thank you :)

[Black Jess]

Your words brought tears to my eyes , i felt like i watched this little girl growing , i felt your pain ,sadness and tragedy . I just can't put into words how incredible your poem is . I absolutely love it , well done great job .

[Kim Jimenez]

thank you for appreciating this poem.. :)