Numb

To feel nothing was always my greatest gift but now its turned into my greatest curse. i long to feel anything hate, pain ,love, or even sorrow but i cant and i dont care i wish i did, but i dont it hurts to think about it i almost cry and that to me is the truest way to admit that i am hurtin and how much she ment and still does.and i will never admit it i cant to me that would be more painful than anything, and i just have to deal with the pain and just let it out and just let the tears flow like a river and let it all go shes gone so my love untill i have you again goodbye