Simple Illusion

I'm 16 years old and I sleep with a bunny
My security blanket how funny
I pile pillows all around me and have to have my back against the wall
Because I only want to feel like someone is holding me
I want someone who will tell me, lie to me and say
Hey it's gonna be okay
And you can guess what I get
Dreams about you!
Overflowing tears
Waking up and wanting just for it not to be a dream
Hoping my cries don't start to scream
I have far too long pretended to be simple
But simple is just an illusion
I have far too long tried to fit in 
Still I tire to find it fitting
I have tried not sleeping with my blue bunny 
To no avail I fail, yeah haha, funny
I'm 16 years old and my life isn't simple
For simplicity is an illusion, designed to complicate my life
If only I can stay away from that oh so deadly knife
It calls me by name and I try to ignore
It says that I need it, but to need something is such a bore
It wants to peal my flesh away 
Wants to see the crimson as it flows
Still I ignore the calls, ignore the heavy blows
Yes it should be simple, simple to be me
But Simple is an Illusion, the only illusion that you really see