9/04

Almost 19, arrogant enough to think I'd seen the worst. 2004

9/04

 

I look back on what should have been

The best years of my life

Well, reality destroyed them

And turned my day into night

No reason to cry over lessons

That I never learned

19 years in the making

I will watch them burn

My God there’s so much pain

Can anybody help?

Things will only get worse

I’m living in hell

And anyway I don’t care

About what people say

‘Cause if I did, I’m sure I would’ve killed myself today

Surrounded by real things

It’s scary but it’s true

At the end of the day the curtains close

And it all fades to blue

 

I look up at the sky

And remember better years

I brush away the crusted blood

I wipe away the tears

I know that what I’ve gained

Far surpasses what I’ve lost

The bright sun shines down

The thawing of the frost

No worries on tomorrow

There’s so much to deal with now

And worrying will not change a thing anyhow

I couldn’t swallow this all

If I cut in half

So if it overcomes me

All I can do is laugh

The world may hold me down

And crush me with its feet

All I have to do is spit in the face of defeat