Please miss me

When people don't listen to a word you say
... It's dead silence if I stay
(stay here with these people)
How many times have I expressed my feelings ?
And how many tears have rolled down my cheeks?
(over a thousand)
I sit in my room
And it's dark with blacked out shades
"in many ways then one I've thought of several ways to kill myself today"
Please miss me
As my body gets cold from these cuts I'm soaking in water "eyes rolling back and knocks on the door"
Asking if I'm ok in here
Yes, I'm fine just bleeding to the death
It took you five minutes to realize that I said nothing while you tried opening the door
"fifteen pounds and eleven kicks to the door"
Please remember me from who I was before
"my mind has gone blank and I'm no longer awake"
You've shook me at least twice and checked my pulse"
My heart beats no more "I told you things about myself but no one was listening"
I killed myself in your bathroom of the home we live in
"mother and father I love you so"
Please miss me
From a few months ago
Not now because my body is cold and my heart is no longer beating "forgive me for being me"
As I write this suicide note to you "please miss me from the days before when I was smiling"
But you didn't listen when I wanted to die
Saying "it's just a phase"
A PHASE OF CUTTING MYSELF AND YOU NOT NOTICING"
Please miss me when I'm gone and shed no tears
"I'm much happier now then yesterday with that fake smiling I put on during school"
No one is listening
While my heart is no longer beating and my eyes are rolled back "suicide was the answer for me to get your attention"
Please miss me for hundred years while I watch over you
~sincerely your daughter ~