cocaine's child

To someone else's eyes
They think they know what I'm feeling on a daily basis "I need to stop"
They say but the thing is I'm not addicted
I started this habit for relaxation at the age of sixteen "does it bother you that I sniff cocaine up my nose?"
I could give you a few reasons why I am doing this
First reason: my parents are not together
Second: i get stressed easily
Third: I do what I want to do
One hit of it and my eyes roll back like an orgasm during sex
Fading into a deep sleep
"I do this to relax, my parents don't know"
My friends think I should stop but the thing is life I've been in and out of hell in my life
"I don't need more issues"
No fights
No tears
No hurt or pain
And certainly no stress
So I roll up a dollar bill and sniff my cares away
I used to smoke weed and cigarettes
People don't care about me at least I think so
"someone does care"
At least when I think about her she's there
"people say the struggle is real but have they been through it enough to know what the f**k it really means?"
I started this when I was sixteen "I'm not addicted"
I just live a stressful life without any true friends by my side
The past is the past but the first hit
Makes my eyes roll back
Like an orgasm during sexual fixations "I'm not addicted to cocaine, I'm just stressed so I do what I do when I do it"
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Author's Note

Its not about me