cigarettes

I lost my dad a few years back
"he used to smoke two packs a day of cigarettes"
He died of lung cancer
When he died I cried for hours with my depression that would last for days
"I told him to stop smoking but he wouldn't listen"
At the time I guess maybe his fixation of smoking took over his body without giving me a chance to personally say my goodbyes
"I loved my dad"
Remembering all those times we would go fishing and how he taught me how to ride a bike
"beautiful memories of a perfect day"
I lost my dad awhile back "his lungs clasped and he stopped breathing"
Now I'll never get to see him anymore
He can't look at me grow
He can't see me at my wedding or give me away to my husband
We can't even talk about last night's basketball game
"daddy please stop smoking"
He spoke to me about smoking
"he'd probably let me smoke with him"
I know he loved me but he didn't care what would happen to him
I remember we would dance together to our favorite song
And how he dance with my mother to this song
"I never knew my mother"
We can't see each other anymore
He can't give me away at my wedding
He can't dance with me
He can't speak to me one last time
Because of a cigarette taking his life to where he would never smile
I cried for hours when he died
And my depression grabbed ahold of my body never letting go
"so I would rock myself to sleep because my tears lasted forever"
I remember beautiful memories "one time when we're fishing I caught the biggest fish I've ever seen and he was proud of me"
What If I get hurt and he can't protect me like he used to
"I never get the chance to dance with my father again"
I lost my dad awhile back because of lung cancer
"his lungs clasped and he died instantly"
I never got the chance to say "goodbye I love you dad"�'�

Reviews

[Namrata]

I am sure that even if you had the chance to say something to your dad, it wouldn't be the "goodbye".

[I am renee]

Well i didnt happen to me it happened to a friend of mine so its not about me