recited by a smoker

My mother told me
Big girls don't cry
That was a bullshit a*s lie
I've cried over a depression because my lover doesn't love me like I want him to
Mind you that I'm cold as ice
I'm that cold hearted b***h you see
In movies
I smoke and pose in pictures
Like I'm some sort of model
Meanwhile I'd rather put a gun to my
Head
And wait for the bullet to
Slowly release itself
I've cried many times throughout the day
Because my lover cant stay away
When i'm naked
So i smoke up my lungs passionately
My life was bullshit
Until one day
I met a young girl on the street
And we skipped rocks wishing we were somebody else "Different"
I feel like i've told this story before
I'm broken
Instead of feeling like I should be rehabilitate
I'm different
But my heart is not careful enough to love again
I'm that smoker you can shoot you down because I'm that much in my misery, I've been in and out of relationships as if it were a disease
I met the same young girl from the day before and we skipped rocks and counting the rose petals that had fallen
Wishing we were somebody else "Different"