The MIDNIGHT

A Poem by Navya Kashyap

A suffering of a survivor of depression.

The MIDNIGHT

By Navya Kashyap

I miss the me left in you..
In between the daunting nights and the haunting thoughts..
Somewhere I was Trapped_
I felt possessed by my intrusive thoughts,
Its all a confusion about how i feel,I lived in Delusion..
My mind spends all day looking for the answers whose questions too had not yet been found..
Just trying to find a way out of this hell!!

Someday i Stay awake all night without sleep staring at the ceiling for hours and the next day i feel like a sleepyhead.. and feels not to leave the bed for the next three days..
Someday eating is merely a punishment for me and the other day I am too hungry to leave eating.
Sometimes I want to be happy..
And the next moment I feel like crying because smiling feels heavy to the throat.. I feel something is stuck in my throat and its hurting.
All the Logic in the world won't keep my heart from hammering in my chest..
I feel pain in my soul..
I feel drained of all my energies..
Every single bone in my body aches..
I feel my whole body screaming..
Its Suffocating to breath even!!
From the Hopeless night to the empty morning.. the journey is Scary.. The second I open my eyes,i feel something is lost But I can't find it!!
I feel completely Vacant and Helpless..
And the Whole day I'm Surviving a war of constant thoughts inside me.. Yes I'm Surviving.. Because I