If I had a choice

If I had a choice I wouldn’t act this way.
The walls cave in suddenly and then I fall to nowhere.
If I had a choice I would be softer but my paranoia creates a beast within me.
I I had a choice I would love more than hate but everyone is my foe and I’m unable to refrain.
I wish I had a choice to be awake in this world but my demons keep pulling me under.