ingratiated b*****d

I am an utter failure 

Just an ingratiated b*****d of repeated folly

My head so shattered, my heart beating outside my chest

Only in the black can I see my own face

Only in the blood can I feel my true fate

No sun will rise

No moon will shine

No stars can guide me and no heaven to hold me

I just hear the whispers chanting for my demise

Not even that can I obtain 

I am deserving of none

Divorced of honest reason

Always undone