love to hate you

my appetite, this craving to fall into the abyss, plunging into the nothingness of my mind.

I was hunting for something more than this air, searching for freedom in your endless sea.

your last kiss hanging on my lips.

I'm afraid of how to be, to be when I'm near you.

do I plan to destroy or love you?

do I approach with sweetness or violence?

and here is my destiny, all in front of me.

flee, fly or keep the absolute lovely of you in my space...

trapped again, trapped by my mind's construct which tries to dictate the form which love is delivered to your door.

I just can't stop thinking of your body on top of me.  

such wicked paths we take, all while such delicate things linger from our past.