“Underpaid & Smiling” - Khat

“Underpaid & Smiling”

9.4.21

5.58pm

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I’m a little underwhelmed coz,

My heart is so big, and my ears are open wide,

Maybe if I wanted, I could give away $500 coz I’m just that rich in texture,

Why is it so hard to give to my parents but so, so easy when it comes to charity?

I don’t think twice,

I’m not up at night wondering if my money’s well spent,

I wonder too, I’m afraid to admit it, but I’m a little greedy when it comes to this,

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You call it savings bank, I’m saving my money in you,

One day, you’ll die, and it’ll still be there,

Coz you said, it don’t go anywhere when you die,

But that makes me look like a money hoarder, a pig, a martyr,

You know they eat pigs,

Did you know they eat pigs?

They roast em, they toast em,

Turkeys too,

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I feel better now,

Coz my new motivation is sentimental, and I can do that,

Rest assured,

Sometimes I’m better off not knowing, but this is money, and I’m greedy,

Call me a pig,

Or Mr. Krabs, coz I’d do anything to get the bag,

But at the same time,

God, I’m out of my mind,

Coz I think I’m capable of pulling off a 9 to 5,

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I work 4 hours a day,

My momma helps me to get paid,

I owe her my life, literally,

So why am I being rebellious about this one thing?

Can someone tell me, I’m ungrateful inside coz I love money,

Green,

Money,

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I don’t wanna be greedy,

I’ve always told myself when I was a kid, nobody told me to think this way,

“I don’t need money,

I don’t need anything,

I don’t need money,

I don’t need anything,

Please oh please, don’t buy me anything,

I wanna be humble,

Please oh please, don’t buy me anything,

Not even on my birthday,

I’m ok,

I’ll survive without anything to get me by,

I have all that I need in my body,

My heart is still pumping blood throughout my body”

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I’m a little redundant, my walls are painted green,

I wish I could fall into the sky,

Coz,

I’m a little abandoned,

I left myself so long ago,

I’ve forgotten my name,

Or are those the alters that help me out in the framework?

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Tell me dear, soft, and sincere,

You have nothing to fear,

When I was young,

My hair and nothing else mattered,

Just my hair,

I was so obsessed with it from an early age,

 I didn’t even know when I would disengage,

It was always my hair and nothing else,

Until one day, I got fed up and cut it short for the first time,

I wasn’t even sad,

But everyone else was, I couldn’t figure it out,

What was it that stood me out?