No Joke

I’ve tried and tried- nothing’s working-
My life has been nothing but tears and now you’re

 here to make them fall again-
Well then I wish I never met you-
Can you turn 7 years into a fine powder-
Crush it and smoke it til the ash and the whispers

 fade away into the nothingness my heart provides

 due to the lack of ongoing communication-
Your fornication is invalid-
It does it no justice, my heart is fragile, my person

 is fragile, the person I look to when the times are

 low, she is fragile, she is my love, the reason for early

 morning breath and the noises that damn my soul are muted coz of her-

The masturbation that is seen is so filthy-
You’re covered in lies-
Head to toe and now you’ve come to spill it all on this innocent

 person, my best friend, you wanna play her like you did me-
I die every day that you breathe, where there was once

 love, hate replaces it, the writhing, slithering ooze of hate-

Once I did love you-
I would’ve done anything for you-
I was so blind, I know now, I know all-

My heart is wrenched and soaked in a flammable liquid ready

 to self destruct with your memories still stuck inside of me-
I am stuck, but I will budge and when I do, I will feed all of the

 demons that have hated you from the start. All the demons that

 told me who you are, I will feed them all!!! And when you’re lying

 in bed at night wondering what you did wrong to receive the

 pain in your heart- the very same in mine- you will think of me

 and regret ever looking at her, she will be saved from your hands

, she will be drawn anew-

When it was me in the hole, she saved me-
Now that very hole is her home and it is my turn-
I will save her as she did me, I will do anything and everything to prove

 to her what a human does to someone they love-



***********************************Please god, let there be

 blood. Let there be tears and ash and flame and battle

. War and suffer and hot sweats and cold sweats and destruction.

Let a raging wind befall us all. For I am angry. And when

 a god is angry, the whole world pays. ************************


�"�"�"�"�"-THE ABOVE IS AN AFFIRMATION

, PURPOSED ONLY FOR MYSELF, IT SERVES

 AS A REMINDER FOR ME TO ALWAYS BE CAREFUL

 OF WHO I GIVE MY HEART TO�"�"�"�"�"

Author's Note

i'd rather be misunderstood than nmistreated