i know your reading this

intentional misspelling and incorrect grammar; ots [on the spot]; for himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm; im taken; i love him; too much? never enough.................................................

tell me about those nights, the ones 

where your alone and you wish for nothing else but me to be beside you

running my fingers through your hair

kissing your cheeks, your nose, your eyes, your forehead

let me tell you a story: I was crying

as i always do

hush; listen now...

I was crying coz i missed you so much

and I knew with all my heart 

I just knew i'd see you again

coz well

it'd be unfair if i didn't

and I had this dream, you were there

you were telling me how wonderful it was to see me again

and i, like i always do, start blushing

but there was something different about you

something stuck in your eyes

something....

you were crying

coz you knew it must have been impossible 

for the chance that we met to have been so

 fateful that if it were to happen again, that there

would be some kind of reprcussion

Oh, but- you, my lover

you were never replaced, I never stopped loving you, in fact

it even hurts to hink you might have thought of that

so i've decided

not to think anymore

thinking is so hard for me

it's so hard to do it properly

I need you by my side, honestly

you do the thinking for me

your thoughts are spun gold

and i know i put you up so high in my heart

but that's how i've always seen you

you're so tough, so strong- so

brave

I want to be you someday

Author's Note

hewo everyone, *paw paw* i feel so much different from when the last time i posted. It's a nice feeling; being in love and, for a period of time, not knowing your in love. it makes it that mroe exciting. i'm probably wrong, but if I am don't tell me i'm wrong..

also i didnt know how else to close my thjoughts so yeah