“For so long” khatoon hazara ||| 11:57am sat. 4.20.19

tsed

“For so long” khatoon hazara ||| 11:57am sat. 4.20.19

You never really cared for me, did you

Oh, constant are the tides that caress your every lie

You never really gave an ounce for my words

They were like dust

And as you would go by, they’ll flutter in the grooves in your hair and then move on

You never gave me a chance to speak freely

I -

I am more than what you see of me

You didn’t ask how I was

Didn’t bother, only bothered with yourself

Then when I came tumbling down you tell me about your heartache

Well I haven’t spoken to you in weeks now and that’s all you got to say

It’s not your fault

It was never your fault

By ghostly means, it was never your fault

And let’s not play the blame game now

Coz I was all alone

Forget all that

Forget that and remember

I am no one

I speak to no one

Only do I when I am irritated or irked (replying to irksome comments

 can do that you know)

Oh, dear god, forbid this that I’d ever speak to a single soul, 

forbid this that I ever reply with the sharpest of tongues

For this, I am not sorry

For I have been sorry for so long