"What a Fool" khatoon hazara ||| 8:05pm, thu. 3.28.19

A Poem by FaeryQueen

tsed

To think that maybe I'd even get a .001% out of 100 from you; well- that was the real mistake, wasn't it? You've put me in a bubble- popped long before its' due... but still- it was the most splendorous bubble.

I could never, ever blame you for building it for me...

Can I be honest, for a quick moment; just before my mask comes back on again?

I've changed, and that change scares even me; coz, see... I don't recognise myself no longer

Is it so bad- forgetting who you are to only build yourself from scratch

Is it bad that I have done just that, countless a many times to the point where it no longer bothers me and I am versatile to the highest point; where my face is a ratified blur to no one but me?

But Honesty, tell me something, here; honestly; you resent me for my values; what I stand for... is this not true, coz I know of it to be so...?

Gosh, inside my head I've been grazing my palms against all known species of flowers Mankind has ever thought of; but in the real world, I can't even go out to smell them?

That's cruel

Even for you- but I dare not put blame on you

It is such a melancholy feeling to be trapped and enslaved by your own mind, but- but, you know no bounds and so you get in trouble in the real word- see, coz there's a lot to get in trouble for

There's a lot that's on the line out there, out where the trip wire's so high you need to lift up your skirt just to pass

But oh- what a fool I've been

...just a sock-less, dream-filled, overachieving, extraordinary fool

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