"Not even from a bloody martyr-er would you ever save me" khatoon hazara ||| 10:46pm, wed. 3.27.19

A Poem by FaeryQueen

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You said you would never believe me because the subject was of blood alone; and blood can never betray you

Oh, but how naive must you be to ever become so blind?

You never knew just how much I was hurting inside, yet you did everything in your power to keep me from speaking my truth because you were so afraid that by doing so I'd somehow rip apart the family name

But if I were to just be honest for just a spill; in heart, subliminal lies have already torn loose the very seams that tie us together,

From spinsters' and wives' and all who knew our name

Rejoice in the name of everything good

Rejoice in the name of the Lord, for it truly is a blessing that we are all still breathing because had he wanted to, he could reach out his hand and crush any of our hearts and we'd drop dead in an instant, there wouldn't even be any room for second guessing

Nothing to confide in us, no one to tell us that all would revert to normal if we just forgot and moved on

We are lost because we do not listen to the little voices near us, our children- if verily it would be so that our children are to be the driving force of our future, then should it not be that we listen to them?

Should it not be that we stop and think about what we choose to ignore instead of just ignoring what we think ought to be ignored just because we will it to be ignored?

Verily it should not be that way

Not at all

Must it be us that open up our ears to our children, must it be us that always linger on every spoken word?

Oh, pray it not be so that we hover over the daily bickerings of their minds', all collectively joined together in steadfast prayer

Alas, it has been a doom to us all, that we may stay here and fret about our loving ploys,

those damned beasts that we take care of, pay caution to their woes for they are more worthy of value than we ever will be

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