"Unseen Tears"

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"Unseen Tears"

khatoonhazara

Everything that you said is gathering in the sky, like stars

Every letter, like atoms that make up my body

Look!

I point to the sky, pointing out how the sky is ablaze with stars, the constance

I wonder how you did that, took my beating heart out of my chest

You said I fell, and that I kept on falling

You said I should begin to love again, and how happy you were!

Your smile lit up the Holy Spirit, in His depression

He began to hope again, for me

But again, those stars!

They're growing!

.. and growing, and growing, and growing...

My how your words grew, shaping the sky, shaping my being..

But isn't that enough?

No!

More and more stars grow into the sky

So many Dreams do you have for me!

And I, none of my own

Your dreams are mine

Your hopes are mine

Your passions...

Your desires...

Motives..

Reasons..

I have none of my own

You took them all away from me

And I knew that this is all based on a moment, a memory..

An idea, a plan..

But the concep of it all..

Astounds me

I've shed so many tears, only the Moon himself could say that he's seen me at my worst

Many hours have gone by without blinking

Blank stares, stars twinkling, words shaping my life

I wonder how many tears you DIDN'T see me cry

The amount would kill you

You think a simple mark on my arm broke your heart?

How about trenches?

Deep holes; craters in my soul?

Craters that YOU made?

My soul..

It's yours, isn't it? 

That's why I gave up..

On everything.