I Shall

"I Shall" 

By: Khatoon Hazara 

 

 

I shall have to remember for next time 

I shall have to  

The rain is making noise outside 

 

 

The pots and pans all clang together in unison 

Singing merry songs of joy and pride 

There will be snow tomorrow 

 

 

There is something light and airy in my heart 

Oh! What a sight I am! Jostling and bustling about; busy in the kitchen as I'm usually not 

The weather man said it'd storm tonight 

 

 

Your favorite dish is a … 

I can't cook, yet you eat all of my attempted chicken salads, which consists of a single semi-raw chicken drowning in lettuce, tomatoes and one whole cucumber 

It's almost 1am and the phone rings 

 

 

Sometimes you'd come over and it feels like the world has stopped spinning 

When you talk to me, the world leans in; hanging on every single word you say 

It's you, saying you're outside the door 

 

 

 

Supply me with knowledge 

Power me with your intellect 

You come inside, locking the door behind you, asking for company in my room, upstairs 

 

 

You deviate me 

You make me feel different  

I agree, saying we haven't talked in ages 

 

 

I hate how I feel when you're not around 

I feel as if the air within me has been let loose. 

I lock my bedroom door as you step inside 

 

 

I explode, I must admit, sometimes 

It's just, not gonna happen, the way it sometimes does 

The bed feels soft as you loom ahead in the overhead scene 

 

 

You fill me with so much excitement 

And that makes me so afraid 

The moon is still screaming at us to part 

 

 

I don't want you to go 

To leave me and never come back 

You and I are becoming one and the moon is yelling at us in envy