Fair Love

on the spot

Slowly, I am transforming

My arms and my legs

Are becoming thicker

I am becoming older

And with that, so has my mind

And my harbor of intellectual knowledge

I have molded myself into things that suit me

And things that haven’t suited me

Things that I’ve tried

And will never do again

I have made mistakes

And I have bruised my pride

My heart has broken

Only to be fixed once again

My tears have fallen

Creating golden threads of further knowledge

For future generations

One day

I will write down all that I have learned

Without even picking up a pen

My Storybook

Is still developing

My world

Is yet to be furbished

 But my character

Has already owned me

 

My eyes

Are becoming sharper

My walk

Is becoming taller

And my hands

Are more curious now

My body

Is responding quicker

My legs

Are standing up on their own

My fragile heart

Will never become stable enough to love for a set amount of time

But I have become everything that I’ve always wanted of myself

My tongue

Is becoming wider with more words

The streets that I am now walking upon

Are becoming confusing

I am walking into too many death traps

But I won’t stay down for long

 

I am safe

Here in this biosphere I have created for myself

 

Love

You are silly

Creating silly phrases to come forth my mouth

I wonder how you made it thus far with me

I am a nuisance

And an introvert

My heart

Fails to beat with resilience

And resistance

Because I am weak

And my mind

Is narrow

But I say my mind is open so I can soothe myself

 

There is nothing that I’d want

Love

Bring the fruit of reason to bloom in front of me

Bring the one I’ve been dreaming of

For a century

 

These… people

I wonder if they even know me

Do you?

Can you untangle these knots that lie tangled within you?

Everything

That I’ve been damned to hear

That I’ve been

Resilient to hear

Is clouding my ears

Judgement

Is slowly fading

And my heart is slowly getting fainter

As I listen to those words

That come forth my past and enters into everything that I’ve taught myself to believe in

My brain

Goes faulty and a static noise comes suddenly

Dawning on me; the fact, love is restricted

Limited

Half-hearted

Chained down

 

No.

Love is not

Love is free

I am love

And therefore,

So is he