"Nothing is Like Nothing..."

on the spot; raw

spinning

without words

falling

angry

tears

spilling

my eyes

shut closed so i don't see stupidity

so i don't hear

stop

moments

after moments

are rolling by

angry tears once again spill

i don't

know

why

what do i feel

that's like something rotted inside of me?

why can't i

smile

nothing

nothing

there's nothing to live for

nothing

nothing

repeating the same words

over

over

over

over

over

fingers

touch me

and i'm not concentrating on the realness anymore

my dreams

travel to 

i travel to

my dreams

no

wait

no 

no

no

no

no

dreams

are reality

backwards

off set

wonky

something

is wrong

with 

me

why

do i 

always find myself asking the same questions

deja vu

my life over

spreading

spreading

over the rotted bits

and filling up the emptiness inside

but i could still feel it

the sting

of a life 

lived before

but

but

but

breathe?

will breathing help

ease the pain

my mind

seems a little strange

words

words

that come randomly outside

where it's not invited

stay

inside

inside

is where you are safe

stop

stop

please

you're saying too much words for me

and i cannot see

foggy

closed eyes

breathe

no more

no more

no more

breathing is taking a lot of effort

just to breathe

in

and then out

and then in again

and then out again

and then back in 

and back out

...