I Don't Wanna Change

on the spot

i don't wanna change

i feel so small

whenever you push me

down

i wanna scream

and yell

but i just end up crying

my tears

turn to fire

as i stare into your eyes

and feel betrayed

you said

you love me

but i guess you lied

so i guess i changed

9 years later

ripped jeans

short shirt

out all of the time

curfews' at 4am

my hairs out

like someone just blew a dynamite

i got problems

don't know how to solve them

so i don't care

i'm out 

my friends don't care

as long as they don't hear the yelling and the screaming

will be another 6 years

until i lose my mind

and end up in the loony bin

like my queen

at least we'll get to chat it up

but she's dead

and i'll be

 still there

like someone

who lived too young

and died

inside

a corrupt hole

a mess of broken things

12 years later

i'll be somewhere where everyone would be

and yet 

they won't remember my name

give or take a few years later

it would be my time

and no one would expect that of me

but i'll go

unchanged