Lonely Lost Son

speechless

The first image I see every morning.
Is your innocent smiling face
Seeing you are growing
Day after day
So all I can do
Is that I kiss you
And ask you
Son, how are you today?
But..
You make me feel like i want to die
because, however had I to try,
You  have never given a reply
Come on, tell me
Why are you doing that to me?
You have chosen to have peace
Away from the hateful earth
But you never told me,
What shall I do?
Your toys, your room, your clothes
All around me
To remind me of you
Although I never forget you
Why were I promised of you
Since I can never enjoy being with you?
Why did you come,
While you previously decided to go?
You were my life dream
Changed into worst nightmare
Now you are my life pain
With grief  you tie me with a strong chain
None of us letting the other alone..

Dad, daddy, papa, pappy,
Titles double my life's severe pain
What about you Mr. Fate?
Do you know how much you were mean?
Happy now, putting me in ever highest pain rate?
I wish you were a father,
And feel the same as I suffer
But since you would never,
Take me to him, please, don’t wait
At least
My heart then would stop to beat
My flooding tears would fade
That I am with him at last
able to kiss..even his feet

Author's Note

the son was dead as soon as born, everyday kisses, the how are you and such things are somthing imaginery, i said i was promised oh him meaning waiting his arrival for 9 months..

Reviews

This really touched me my friend, So lovely so deep, I miss him through your words too, as you remind me of a dervish writer.... who has your name too. Only one letter in "E" as my forname starts, I mean Khaled. Your ending, is a grace, and respect in your world, I bow. And not look you in the eyes, of saying; "Thank you"

E.L.

[Laura Maidah]

The line breaks kind of demolish the eloquence of your sorrow. It is in thorough need of verse structure.

[The dark story]

i thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this poem

[The dark story]

it's so much touching and emotions are just coming out of it like a fountain...i like it

[Coyote Poetry]

I'm sorry for your loss. I could feel the great pain in the description. Losing a child leave us with wishes and hope lost. A very sad poem. Thank you for sharing the poem.
Coyote

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A tear was never far from my eye while I read this piece, well done, good read.

[Destinyxi]

This is really sad.. made me pout. A really great and heart wrenching poem. Keep it up.

[Michael X]

This is touching work khalid, it speaks of life, longing and lessons, memories, experiences that define, beautifully written emotional detail.

[Renée]

My heart goes out and touches each tear ...

[afra]

awwwwwww ...tears ***