Lonely Lost Son

speechless

The first image I see every morning.
Is your innocent smiling face
Seeing you are growing
Day after day
So all I can do
Is that I kiss you
And ask you
Son, how are you today?
But..
You make me feel like i want to die
because, however had I to try,
You  have never given a reply
Come on, tell me
Why are you doing that to me?
You have chosen to have peace
Away from the hateful earth
But you never told me,
What shall I do?
Your toys, your room, your clothes
All around me
To remind me of you
Although I never forget you
Why were I promised of you
Since I can never enjoy being with you?
Why did you come,
While you previously decided to go?
You were my life dream
Changed into worst nightmare
Now you are my life pain
With grief  you tie me with a strong chain
None of us letting the other alone..

Dad, daddy, papa, pappy,
Titles double my life's severe pain
What about you Mr. Fate?
Do you know how much you were mean?
Happy now, putting me in ever highest pain rate?
I wish you were a father,
And feel the same as I suffer
But since you would never,
Take me to him, please, don’t wait
At least
My heart then would stop to beat
My flooding tears would fade
That I am with him at last
able to kiss..even his feet

Author's Note

the son was dead as soon as born, everyday kisses, the how are you and such things are somthing imaginery, i said i was promised oh him meaning waiting his arrival for 9 months..

Reviews

[Cree Nations]

a tragic loss yet in memoriam for always by your words.

[Hadeel ( Charming Fairy..]

Ya Allah , its so sad and sincere
but cheer up he will be a beautiful bird waiting you in heaven
this is a bless .. its really touching :)

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~ i cannot begin to imagine this pain, dear khalid... i'm so sorry that you have experienced this loss of all losses... your love for him is intense... and i do believe that he can feel it... wherever he is... i believe in the power of love... i completely believe in it... it travels through the air we breathe to the highest skies and the deepest depths of the earth... i cherish a heart as sensitive and as loving as yours... you are very precious to this universe that needs all the love you can give it... ~ thank you for sharing this absolutely overwhelming piece of poetry...

[khalid]

thank you. it is really highly appreciated..

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~ the privilege is all mine...

[khalid]

i have to thank you again for your sweetness..

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~ you're very welcome, my sweet friend...

[khalid]

how can i not be sweet facing such sweetness?

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~ oh...you are amazing...

[khalid]

am i? i have never known that..

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~ absolutely, dear khalid...

[Basma Hesham]

Wow, I felt shiver all along me body. I felt all the sorrow, and all the pain you've been through ..
You reminded me of this one time I was telling me mum that I wished I'd die before her, so I don't witness her death. She told me that by this wish, I was killing her, because losing a child is a life-disaster.
Your beautiful son is an angel in Jannah now :)

[khalid]

im sure he is in Jannah and that is what makes the situation little better. thank you

[luviva]

wow.. a great poem from the deapest of your heart!! i felt for you and i know how disappointing it is to have great life with a child and the next he/she is wipped away from the face of the earth by "mr fate". loved it and thanxx for sharing!!

[khalid]

thank you

[dunnia]

this is such a nice poem..i can almost feel your sorrow..im so sorry for your loss

[khalid]

thanks alot, thats life Miss Life

[dunnia]

your welcome :)

["Longing from Ages"]

its a personal loss and losing someone who is just a part of u is very painful.........the way its been described is heart throbbing. ...your words say it all.

[frivolous treasures]

Very heart- touching, and made my eyes prickle with tears... I cannot imagine losing a child, but I pray that I do not. This makes me look upon the 'hardships' I see in my life, and then I feel ashamed...
Very touching, very emotional

[khalid]

thank you for your sensitive feelings..

[frivolous treasures]

Your welcome ^^

[Cerise]

oh my gosh.you have the ability to tear a heart with such words..very heart-touching ..amazing work

[khalid]

thank you so much for those sincere feelings..

[Virtuosa X]

I can't possibly know how the narrator feels but that's a beautiful write. Full of emotion & regret, of wanting & a taste of hate.
Nice Job!