I'm sorry

“I’m sorry”

It rolled off his tongue like a well-known Shakespeare quote, soft and sweet but unlike “to thine own self-be true” this had no meaning or thought behind it.

He had spent so much of his life apologising it was becoming his favourite past time, and I for one was becoming immune to the simplistic sentence that used to melt my heart and make everything forgiven.

“I’m sorry I made you cry”

It’s alright, I’m fine

stab

 “I’m sorry I made you cry again”

This time hurt but it’s okay it’s not your fault

stab

“I’m sorry I made you cry this time”

This time, exactly always, this time, what about next time or the time after that, then are you sorry?

stab

Sometimes people say sorry and fix what they have broken or, even mend the thing that they did wrong but not him, he used the word as a ‘get out of jail card’ as if our relationship was a game of monopoly, that when you messed up, you just waited for your next roll of the dice.

Now and again you have to put your feelings first and not let others dictate your choices, you have to stand up, so I finally, I mean I was ready to start the inevitable conversation, so I guess it was ironic that when I held his now lifeless and cold body next to mine the only words that could escape my mouth were …

 “I’m sorry”. 

Reviews

[onceloved]

Filled with raw emotions it take a strong person to look at a relationship so objectively to say what need to be said. :) Larry

[Diving underwater for Air]

thank you it means a lot xoxo