I Wish They All Knew...

I wish my teacher knew
How much I love this class,
And how much it helps me…

I wish my parents knew
How much pain I'm in everyday…

I wish my friends knew
That I care about them more than myself…

I wish my boyfriend knew
What goes through my head everyday…

I wish everyone knew
How much I want to end it…

I wish I knew
How to stop the pain,
How to stop the tears,
How to love myself,
How to say I'm beautiful,
How to stop wanting it to end…

I wish my family knew
What I've been through,
Why I tried to end it so many times…

I wish they all knew
Why…

Why I don't want to be here,
Why I hate myself so much,
Why I hate the way I look,
Why I'm in so much pain,
Why I feel this way…

I wish they all knew
That I can't do this alone…

I wish they all knew
What I do to make the pain go away…

I wish you knew…

I wish I knew
People cared…

I wish I knew
It didn't have to be this way…

I wish we all knew…

I wish my family and friends knew
How close I am to breaking down…

I wish he knew
I'm broken…
I'm damaged…
I'm far from perfect…

I wish I knew
I wasn't worthless,
I wasn't pathetic,
I wasn't cheap,
I wasn't trash…

I wish I knew
I matter…

I wish I knew
How to bring light into the darkness within me…

I wish they knew
It wasn't my fault...

Reviews

[Matthew Kult]

Its hard to not fall into ones head. So much easier to stay silent and not want to be a burden. But its okay to ask for help. To ask for someone to take you by the hand and walk you to the light per say. Stay strong. Don't be afraid to express yourself and keep writing. You do matter. You are above value. And many love you.

Always,

Matthew

[Kris...]

When I first wrote this I was in a very dark place in my life and I was struggling with PTSD. One day my creative writing teacher told us to write a poem of any kind and I presented this, he was worried about me so I stayed after school. Writing this the only way I can get this stuff out, all the bad feelings I have inside me. Ever since I started writing I've felt better about myself because I'm not holding those feelings in anymore I'm actually doing something about it.