On the afternoon of the day I photographed the dead mouse I
had my usual day-before-my-birthday dinner with my father and his wife. It was
nice and lasted just long enough. We had seafood and we talked mostly about
food but we also managed to talk about the washing machine they had recently
purchased. It seems they had a lot of complaints about the new device which
mostly had to do with the energy saving features. That fact alone should tell
you something about my father. He still thinks the energy crisis is a myth and
that there is enough oil for countless bored generations to endure. He also
thinks we can find that oil here in America. He is very emphatic about
this. In any case, I think he did get something right about the washing
machine.
"Here's how they getcha'," he said slightly scowling. "It's got
a smaller motor, see, so it runs fewer watts per hour but I'll be damned if the
thing doesn't run twice as long. So, you tell me; how does that help a single
solitary anything?" He looked pretty serious as he said this; his
snow-white brows gathering like clouds above those green eyes and that Cherokee
hook of a nose. There was no argument available. His logic was impeccable.
I love my father, and despite years of friction between us, there is nothing
really left to iron out. We have differed widely in our views over the years,
but hell, the guy is eighty-two years old and he is still alive. I think that must count for something. He also still
manages to let me know he thinks of me sometimes and I try to do the same. We are father and son but we are also
brothers. There is something subtle which is understood; a stand-offishness
which is hard to describe. We can laugh and talk about the most mundane
technical trivia. We can go on and on about something as simple as the quality
of drywall. We earnestly contemplate the hard facts of things. We share
anecdotes about material and the handling of material. We have important tales
to tell of production and politics. We whisper and confide about the wonders of
mechanics and electricity. My father has taught me many things. He has
instructed me wisely in many matters and so I listen. I listen to him about the
washing machine and so many other seemingly insignificant things. The man is
still with me and I hope he remains with me. He is the real raw grit of me. He
is also exceptionally kind.