sullen love.

I want to cry to you because I'm just so confused.

My eyes are half-shut from another sleepless night,

Of worrying and wandering.

This over-thinking is killing me,

And everything I ever stood for.

I'm hoping I'll relax and this will all pass,

To what I'm afraid is the beginning of the end.

 

My eyes are half-shut from the tears that I shed,

Yesterday when you sat beside me.

I told you of my worries, fears, and mind games,

As you rested your right hand on my knee.

You rubbed my back as my mascara stained my suede pillow,

Consoling me with, "You matter to me, " and, "I love you more than you'll ever know".

 

I don't know what's wrong,

But it's making me absolutely sick,

Because, for some reason,

I hesitated saying "I love you back".

Just know that I could never, ever bear to hurt you,

Because, deep down, I know that I love you.

I'm just afraid that I'm holding onto something,

That I'm afraid of losing,

In denial of the reality,

That I could sadly,

Devastatingly,

Lose my love for you.

 

I couldn't live with myself if or when that happens,

Because I'm hurting someone who genuinely loved me.

You.

 

Reviews

[Katherine]

Love it, youre an amazing poet!!

[Lyn Anderson]

What a beautiful, heartfelt write. Thank you for the read request.:)

[Miss Kerri]

Thank you!