November's EndA Story by Joshua KepferNovember's
End 1
A figure far away anxiously wandered through
the wood. He was wearing old hunting clothes above boots that were clearly too
big for him. The mop of hair on his head was complemented by the dark shade of
his eyes. Lost, he might have appeared to some. But to the man who was watching
him, he was definitely searching. What for? The boy looked around frantically,
but patiently, like one who knew he would not find what he wanted.
Determination was also hard on the boy's face. It made him look older, maybe in
his thirties. As clear as that, though, was the look of fear. It was all over
his eyes, made them darker. Why was he searching,
and what was he afraid of finding? These questions the man pondered while he
peered through his spyglass. A bit odd, to be sure, most people would think
from seeing this, but police work was slow today back in town twenty miles away.
Jones only followed the case as any natural policeman would, maybe just a
little farther than most would have gone. This was worth it, though, he had a
real suspicion. A few more minutes of
hiding and hunting went on, then the boy stopped dead in his tracks. He stood
there for nigh five minutes, unmoving. Jones orbited around to get a better
view. The boy was crying. Suspicions raged through the detective's mind. This
was the place. The boy knelt and touched the ground, then brought up his hand
with a white object. Most would think it a piece of broken porcelain. Jones
knew it was bone: a fragment of the occipital region of a skull. Yes, this was
the November child. He'd heard the details of the case just a month ago. It had
been closed away for 13 years, but the detective had to figure out what
happened here. He knew something wasn’t right, and he knew no one else wanted
to. As it would have been unwise to approach the grieving boy now, Jones
quickly went back to the station.
2 There was a coin, different from the rest in the world. The face carved in the gold surface, no one could recognize. The face had a game. It was written in the tail end of the coin: If anyone will touch this coin death will catch him
But that was thousands of years after the first toucher died, when death was given a weapon. A wooden pole with hardened rock at an end. Sticking out of the rock was a curved piece of metal. When he appeared the instant this first woman touched the coin, the metal gleamed with her blood. This was his satisfaction. Just as reaching out to the coin was for a human. And death, though seen by himself as a free man, had only one real choice to make: the rock, or the metal. Patient, he was; always lurking around us, hoping for moments to strike. Waiting in the dark for a touch, unseen by the flesh until their contacting. Many people, once they saw him would think, as their last thought, that death looked old and feeble while he sprang upon them. The rest would tell he looked like a little boy or a girl even, if their decapitated heads could speak. The coin did not favor any humans, so neither did death. They all meant the same thing to death: food for his lust. But the coin was the real eater, and even it didn't understand the truth of what it was doing. It would learn a bit more tonight. 3 The boy walked off the
dusty street in through the swinging doors. He was a man, though. He knew he
was a man; 21 was his age. Everyone still kept telling him that his thoughts
and fantasies belonged to a child. Fantasies? They were the truth! At least his
search for truth. He did nothing but search, and think his thoughts. Boyish as
they may be, he knew they were true. If believing that his dad was slaughtered
by a man so fast he couldn't see what had happened was boyish, then yes he
might be like a boy sometimes. The inside of the old, quiet bar came into view.
His first step in was proceeded by a creaking in the floor boards. A few eyes
lazily turned his way. One pair he recognized. Darn, he thought, wrong pub
today. The pair of eyes were
immediately raised and, apparent with humor, a voice hollered, "Hey Ben!
Find your dead dad yet?" Then the sound of a donkey came from his
disgusting mouth. Ben assumed this was laughter. The friends around the man all
chuckled along. Obviously, they were drunk, too. Benjamin November stood there
unmoving, awaiting the next insult. Chuck wasted no time
after quickly taking another swig of his jug. "Aw, that's too bad. I was
really hopin' for ya." Ben started to walk
forward to the counter. “You know what, Ben?”
Chuck continued. Ben reached the
bartender, and said, “I’d like a bottle of anything.” He had a rough day, so he
thought he’d earned it. “You know what?” Chuck
squealed with his vermin hootin’ behind him. “I’m thinkin’ by now you ain’t
never gonna give up lookin’. So why not just do off with yourself, and find him
in hell?” Ben usually could take
ill humor well, but now he was seething. What does he know of hell? There grew a silence,
as the happy audience felt the tension in the room becoming dangerous. Chuck
apparently didn‘t pick up on this. “He’d probly appreciate it more than you
bein’ a little bi-” As soon as Ben’s drink
hit the counter, he was like lightening. He threw the bottle with all his
strength straight at Chuck’s hideous face. The contact exploded the glass. The
idiot was sent flopping to the floor in his chair. "My Father is
dead. I am not looking for him," Ben shouted as he strode toward the
unconscious body and its friends. "I need to find whoever killed him, and
right now, I really wish it was you." That's when he stopped, as something
caught his eye. A glimmering in the corner. He walked closer to it, almost
oblivious to the threats he was receiving from all around. Just then there was
a voice coming from the inside of his head. "Don't go, don't
go looking there." This stopped him. That voice was so familiar. "I want to look
over there." Ben thought. "I know. Everyone
wants to Ben, but that is not the right way to go." This all seemed so
familiar. It reminded him of that terrible day his father died. Yes, there was
that same hint of a glimmer. Ben took another step toward what was cautioned. "Do you know who
I am?" said the voice. Ben's heart started
thumping heavily. It was telling him this was the Lord. That was impossible, though. If God existed, He would not want to speak to him. "No" Ben replied. "I am your
God." This was undeniably true. Ben felt fear suddenly enter him. "No
Ben." the voice said louder. "Don't fear; there is nothing to be
afraid of." Ben's fear turned to awe. "There was never anything to be
afraid of." Ben might have
believed him, but a sudden impulse drew his mind to the flashing. Awe
transferred to anger. "Nothing to be afraid of? I watched my dad die...
You let him die! And you waited all these years to talk to me until now when I
see something that might give me the truth about why he's dead!" "I am the
truth!" thundered the voice. "I know why he died. My heart broke for
your father! All his life he was searching, but never for me. I begged him just
as I am begging you. I wept! I told him the danger of looking." This voice
was so powerful. Ben staggered, then collapsed, still seeing the glint of
something in the corner. He didn't know what to think. "Ben," in such
a calming voice, "Why do you still search as if I am not enough?" A
tear fell down his cheek. "Would you like to sleep?" Ben could barely
visualize the shapes of people over him. "Yes." he said. Death was waiting;
always waiting, but now he was severely impatient. The boy hadn't touched the
coin. That happened from time to time, but he didn't even see the face! Why?
What went wrong? death was panicking. Again! How could this boy escape the gaze
twice? His coin was no doubt raging. He remembered it well the night he took
the boy's father. O', how glorious it would have been! To feast on two souls,
but the one escaped. The coin now knew, though death didn't, the earth soon
might not be its domain. And it was very afraid. Help might be needed.
4 Ben awoke. He was on
the floor of a house. Yes, his house. The only object in his mind was a
question. What was that? That voice he'd heard, could that really be God? "Good morning
Ben!" he sprung around. "It's good to see you well." There was a
man leaning against his wall, speaking to him. He was devilishly handsome at
every angle. Ben was confused.
“How, how did you get into my house?” “I brought you here.”
the man said. “Seemed like you were in pretty bad shape. Looked like a bar
fight.” “How’d you know where
I live?” Ben inquired. “You were conscious
enough to let me know.” Ben didn’t remember a thing after he fell asleep, but
this man looked like he was telling the truth. “Gosh, Ben, you look like you’ve
seen a ghost. Did anything unusual happen last night, or is this ordinary for
you?” Ben was not sure that he should tell this man what he thought had happened
last night. “You didn’t see anything unordinary?” after he shook his head. What an odd question.
“Not really.” he said. “Now Ben,” the man
sounded genuine, but something didn’t feel right about him. “I went to all this
trouble to get you out of this mess; the least you could do is be honest.” Ben
nodded his head. “Did you see a light that seemed different?” How did the man know?
“I saw something glitter.” Ben said, casting off his suspicions. “That’s what I
thought.” The man excitedly exclaimed. "Weren't you just tingling with
curiosity?" "I guess." "You guess!"
The man waved his arms then said, "Why, Ben, did you want to grab
it?" Ben decided to be to
be honest. "It reminded me of losing my dad." "Oh," the
man said, smiling, as if entertaining a child. "Is that right? Well let me
clarify something for you. You may think you recognized it, but that is not the
reason you desired it." Ben felt uncomfortable. Did this man know his
innermost thoughts? "You desire it because you are like everyone else; like
me. We all sense the pleasure and clarity this object brings, and rightly we
do! When I listened to the calling it was the best moment of my life." Ben
still looked confused. This man's expression suddenly turned to surprised.
"You did touch it, didn't you?" Ben felt strangely embarrassed. He
sheepishly shook his head. The man laughed. "Why on earth would you not go
to your calling once you saw it? Get hit on the way over?" "Sort of,"
Ben said, "someone told me not to." The man still looked
amused. "And why in the world would you value their judgment over your
own?" "I think it was
the Lord." Ben confessed. This may have taken
the confident man off guard. He took a step backwards, and for a half-second
his face seemed white. But quickly he resumed his old posture, so that Ben
wasn’t actually sure he’d moved. "You mean God?" The man mocked,
"If God exists, he's not going to waste all his time on someone who can't
even think for himself. I'm certainly not going to waste my time here anymore.
Actually, I'm a little disappointed in your willpower. It's really a pathetic
decision to leave things like this up to a 'God.'" He started heading out.
"But Ben, next time a real opportunity chances upon you, take the gift
like other men do. I hope to see you then." With that, the man left the
door. Ben tried to make
sense of what exactly happened in the last 12 hours. Eventually, he settled for
strange circumstances and coincidences, but deep in his mind he knew that
whatever this was could not be overlooked, and it made him uneasy. The man walked briskly
out of the dumb boy's house. "I hate this job." he muttered to
himself. He was shaking. He may have just failed the convincing. He was scared
of the future. He hated thinking about the future, or the present, or time. He
shouldn't have to dwell here. He should be above time; beyond it's crippling
reaches. But he is stuck here: Earth: how utterly unpleasant. He's stuck with
these humans who start out knowing absolutely nothing but the pain of life. How
could the Creator love them?How in the world could a creature like Ben deserve
more than he? The man thought these
things as he changed. He was changing. He was no longer a man, and death saw.
So this was the devil. He thought so; he'd seen him in many different forms.
This better have worked, death thought. There's only one way this coercing
couldn't have worked, because there's only one thing that the devil fears.
5 "God." Ben
exclaimed after hours of debating with himself whether last night was real.
"What is going on?" He asked without expecting an answer.
Surprisingly, one came then. An unforeseen thought: "Your life is
going on, but you do not take the time to know how or why." The thought
was clear, and Ben could think of no response to it. "Do you know what you
saw?" Ben had so many
conflicting emotions. Somehow he felt guilt for desiring what he did see.
"No," he said. "How," attempting to change the subject,
"How did my dad die?" Though, worriedly, he felt that he already
knew. "Will this answer
help you with your struggles?" "Will it hurt
me?" "Truth always
hurts, until it burns away doubt. You have a lot of doubt, Ben." "I know."
Ben admitted as the need for answers gnawed at him. Steadily he gained a desire
for whatever truth would be uttered. He felt a sigh from God.
"Lewis died from what everyone has died from: Mortality: Sin:
Selfishness." A long pause followed. Ben was actually relieved that his
father's death was that simple with no other outside forces, but then He
continued. "Lewis walked as you walk, thought as you think, and saw what
you saw. I put so much of him in you. In one way, at least he differed from
you, though. He looked upon what you saw yesterday, and he grabbed it. That
innocent, beautiful temptation convinced him to touch itself if only for a second,
which was all death needed. He died because he listened to the things around
him that demanded his attention. Instead of me." Ben was holding back
tears, until now, when God started to cry. After a while, God said, "Ben,
find life. Go the way to my house." Ben was even more
bewildered now. "I don't know where your house is! How can I know the way
there?" God began a soft
laugh. "I am the way. I am all of your truth. I am your life." Ben
wondered at this. Could his answers be this simple? "I set you free,
Ben, but you're still sitting in the dark. Why? I've given you complete freedom
to get up, but you just sit here, stroking a coin." "I don’t
understand!” Ben pleaded. "You will learn
in time. I've chosen you specifically to spread my message to others." "What?" "I will give you
my Words, and you will share them." "Why? I am
probably the worst choice you could have." Ben didn't know if he was
feeling overwhelmed or scared or unworthy of this. There was a pause.
"There's going to come a time when that will seem to be the truth, Ben,
but take heart! I make the right choices. You will forget what I told you more
and more as time wears on." Ben's heart started to sink. "I'm letting
you know so you can trust me when it's over. You will put yourself through some
hard times." Ben was getting another headache. "There is absolutely
no reason to touch your dad's killer, Ben, but I will not abandon you if you
do." With that, his thoughts ceased. Ben felt abandoned already. No! This was the worst
time for Him to leave. Why can't He stay? What was the purpose of building him
up, then tearing him down again? God told him that sin leads to death, and that
he would sin, but then come to His place. Wouldn't that mean that his sin
wouldn't lead to death? This sin couldn't be so bad. If it was, then why didn't
God stop Father from touching it? If the pleasure of that gleam brought death,
God could have diverted it from Dad's sight, and he would be here right now.
There was also the fact that the nice man- granted he was odd- who brought him
to his house today said that he touched "the coin" and was perfectly
alright, maybe more superior than before. These thoughts battled
in Ben's head. Satan was there even now, planting seeds of doubt into the boy's
head. Some were growing fast. He thought this situation might need a little
more convincing, just in case, though the boy surely wouldn't need more than
its own cursed nature. How foolish these humans were. How despicable. How could
they believe a God could ever love their pitiful selves. Unlike himself, God
has made them all for his amusement. A joke for him to laugh at. He chuckled to
himself just before he vomited out of pure hate for these creatures and
himself. No, he loved himself, didn't he. He was by far the most beautiful one
residing this planet. He often reminded himself of this.
6 The next day the coin
chose to show itself to the boy for a second time. Right when he woke up, he
saw the coin glitter on his musty desk. The boy closed his eyes immediately,
and looked away. Ben was out all day, and when he came back, he avoided the
desk entirely. Curiosity constantly beckoned him to look. Eventually, he took
one quick glance, and saw nothing. He tried again, and laughed to himself; he'd
been afraid of something that wasn't there all day. What would Jon say to all
this? The next morning he
woke up at 6 o'clock, feeling terrorized like never before. The thing. It was
under his sheets! How did it get there? He felt it on his stomach, separated
from skin only by his nightgown. Afraid of the touch, he did not move at all,
but lay still for some minutes. He soon looked again at his clock, and saw that
two hours had past. This frightened him greatly. He thought he may as well
touch the coin now, and be done with it. This desire was overwhelming almost
all other thoughts. Ben recalled then what God said to him. Would he give in
this easily? No, he would fight! He summoned enough courage to roll over to his
side. He shuddered as he felt the cold metal slowly slide off his stomach. Quickly
he darted up, and jumped out of the bed, not giving his mind another chance to
be tempted. There was something terribly pleasurable about this gold, he
couldn't deny. He thought he spotted
it later that day, but didn't dare to check to make sure. These appearances
occurred randomly for a long time. In his dresser, on the grass, next to his
horse. Without realizing, his father's importance began to fade in his mind
while the coin seemed ever more vital. He knew it was dangerous, but
thrillingly so. He spotted it again on August 9th and didn't reflexively look
away. Instantly, thoughts of argument were brought to his head. This coin, now
with no more glint, looked ordinary. Beautiful, simple, nothing to be afraid
of. That's what God told him. And only things that won't hurt are not to be
feared. He stepped forward twice. God's voice hit him
again. Ben stopped. "You will not hear me out loud again until you
die." Ben started to cry. "It's alright Ben. I want to let you know
that you have a choice, so choose what you will, but this coin brings death.
Please don't choose it, child. Do not choose death. Choose life! Why would you
move towards death?" Ben took one more step forward, but then decided to
leave. He felt gratitude emanating inside him from the Lord. From then on Ben grew
more confident in himself, thinking it was his will power that saved him from
the death. Yes, this was good. It wouldn't have to wait much longer now.
7 "Benjamin
November?" he asked. "Yes?" Ben
replied. Jones smiled and shook
his hand. "Hi, I'm detective Jones. Is it alright if I ask you some
questions?" "Alright."
The boy said. "Do you live
alone Ben?" Jones inquired. "Yes" Ben
eyed him suspiciously. "Why is
that?" "Never had time
to marry." "Ah, business is
too busy. What is your profession?" "What is this
about?" Ben asked, instead of answering. "I'll be honest,
it's about Lewis. The day he died." Jones said. Ben's eyes tensed, and
angled downward. He studied the wearied figure before him for a moment before
going on. "I know people already questioned you about this, and I'm sorry,
but I really need to hear what happened from your perspective." "Alright."
he nodded his head, clearly nervous. "Where were you
both that day?" It was hard for Ben to
get words out of his mouth. "We went to the Appellations. for a
vacation." "Hunting?" "No," Ben
shook his head, "just a vacation." "Alright"
Jones scribbled on a paper with his pen. "Do you have a cabin up
there?" he asked. "A lodge" The detective stopped
writing and was silent for a bit before he asked, "What were you doing
when he died?" The boy's eyes misted.
"We were on a stroll." "Where
exactly?" "About twenty
miles up the road." His head gestured to the dirt road along his house. "He was murdered."
Ben's voice grew softer. "Yes, that much
is clear. How was he killed?" "From a
club." Ben answered. "And who was
wielding the club?" Jones inquired as Ben's eyes met his. Then they seemed
to look past him. After a silence Jones cautiously repeated his question. Ben was transfixed.
"Nothing of consequence." he softly spoke. His eyes were still fixed
on a point behind the detective. Jones quickly glanced
back, and saw nothing but the tree in Ben's front lawn. "What?" He
asked for clarification. Ben seemed almost
hypnotized by his tree, then suddenly his eyes snapped back to Jones. He looked
guiltier now, or at least more nervous. Finally he said, "Something killed
him." Jones looked confused.
"But you just said that." Ben seemed perfectly alright with his
answer. "Ben. Who killed your father?" he asked sternly. Ben looked pleadingly
at him. "It wasn't me! Don't you understand? It wasn't me!" The detective tried to
calm him down. "I never said I thought it was you." "Well everyone
thinks it was me." He was in anguish by now. "They think I'm either
evil or just insane. How could I kill my father? I was eight." "That's part of
what puzzles me, Ben." Jones said, reassuringly. "But you killing him
is the only story that seems to make any sense at all. So if you didn't kill
him, you better tell me who did." Ben didn't react to what Jones said. His
eyes were again elsewhere. Suddenly he whipped his head around inside, looking
for something. "Ben!" Jones shouted to no avail. Ben's eyes locked on
his piano behind him, a look of horror on his face. Jones looked past Ben to
his piano. Nothing was wrong with it. Ben's head turned
again, and he anxiously looked into Jones' eyes. "I need you to leave
right now. I am extremely busy." he said, then quickly shut the door. "Wait! Ben! What
is this?" Jones had nothing but confusion and concern now. "I can
help you!" The door locked. "What is going on?" he asked
himself. He got no answer.
8 Suddenly, panicked, he
couldn't remember exactly what God had told him to do. He was lured slowly
forward down his hall. He saw it clear now. A simple coin. The head on it
looked oddly familiar, but seemed to change whenever he thought he’d recognized
it. Ben tore his gaze away, but looked back only a second later. It was then
gone. Ben experienced a longing disappointment, then again horror; he felt it
in his pocket. He knew it was present even without feeling it's weight. It was
much less heavy than what he thought gold should have been. He touched the
outside of his pocket, and shivered. Slowly, he slipped his shaking fingers
into his pocket. His arm hesitated. He knew that he shouldn't touch this
menace; this legend; that he would regret it. But as if that knowledge didn't
mean anything, his fingers reached down his pocket anyway. The tip of his middle
finger touched the gold, and instantly death leapt onto his back. The following
seconds were greatly elongated so death could make him feel more. The poor boy
fell face first onto his carpet. His arm was broken at the right elbow as death
screamed in delight. Then the rock struck the left shoulder, cracking it as
well. Ben screamed, and death was now laughing hysterically. The blade came
next. The jagged piece sank into the whelp's left shoulder, and then the arm
was pulled off. He'd never done that before, and he was glad when he did now. Death
was enjoying this too much. He stomped on the boy more, then decided to end it;
the coin was impatient for its kill. The scythe was raised for the kill, but
for an unknown reason death could not bring it down. The spectator and his
demons left before the brightness enveloped them all. Death was not realizing
what was happening. The coin reluctantly fled. He had better leave too. Ben felt himself
slowly being picked up, and placed on his feet. He walked slowly away, mind in
a haze. He was limping with something holding him up. When he looked to find
out what it was, he saw a man. This surprised him, but it had no other effect.
The feelings of agony and nausea were blocking most other functions of his
brain. They reached the candlestick phone, and Ben painfully tried to remember
what to do with it. Eventually, contacting the hospital found its way into his
head. "Hello this
is-" said the friendly female voice from the phone before he interrupted. His voice was shaky.
"My arm is off. I... please. Please help me!" His mind trailed off.
The lady mumbled something vitally important to him, but she sounded so quiet.
Ben could not concentrate enough to understand. The phone dropped out of his
shaking fingers. "I'm going to die now" he explained to her. He had failed.
He deserved the harsh sleep like all others. Ben laid down, and died within the
minute.
Ben's father was alive
18 years ago. The three of them (the father, and the two brothers) spent a
large amount of time together. The mother and the sister didn't understand
them; going off on adventures far from home. Their father made them tough, but
that was not his intent. He simply wanted to cherish them with what he knew, as
any father should. These children needed their dad, but death gives no heed to
such minor details in his work. To better bond with
his children, Lewis November decided to vacate with all three of them
individually. He had begun with his son Ben. Honestly, he was a little more
exited for Jon's trip; he needed it more. But what he'd hoped to accomplish for
his family was never done. Ben came home from their trip alone. No one knew
what happened to his father. Ben was picked up and brought to a hospital after
wandering for two days in the mountains. He was hallucinating, they said.
Unfortunately, the relationships with the family he had were not the same after
this. "Benny!"
said little Jonny when he saw him after their dad’s death. He hugged him
warmly. "I thought you were dead, too!" Ben just stood there
in the doorway, unable to talk. A tear slid down his cheek. His mother rushed
up and embraced him. "It's alright." she kept saying in between sobs.
Ben wasn't sure what she meant by "it." He could not think of
anything that was all right now. The mother was married to Lewis when Ben was
six, three years after his real mother died. She honestly tried to love him with
all her heart, but she couldn't seem to bond with the boy as well as the
others. And when dear Lewis died, she felt even less close to his son. She
couldn't help but feel a subtle, but deep sense of envy towards Ben. Or maybe
it was blame. Jon loved his big brother. He may have, however, picked up some
of his mom's feelings. When Jonathan thought about it, Ben never gave an answer
for how Father died. He always just referred to strange stories Father would
tell them at night. The police came around
to telling the hurt family that it appeared someone had killed their Lewis.
"Clubbed 'em in the head,” but they found no evidence of anyone other than
the lad and his father in the woods.
10 "I'm awake."
The boy replied as more of a question. The face of Jonathan November slowly
came into focus. Jon had his unnaturally large smile on his cheeks that only
looked normal because of his bulbous nose. "How" Ben started, "...I'm
not dead." Again more of a question. "Indeed you're
not!" Jon laughed. Benny sat up stiffly
in the hospital bed, using mainly his left elbow, for his right was slung. He
quickly fell back on his left side, then gasped when his shoulder throbbed with
pain. "Ah!" he shouted as he flinched and pulled his right hand over
to the aching area. Ben looked concerned as he sat up slowly again. When his
eyes scanned across to his left hand, it wasn’t there! The whole arm, he soon
figured out, had completely vanished. He stared, tear-eyed and confused, at his
sibling who told him that his arm was cut off (ripped off seemed too harsh of a
term to use). Ben couldn't believe this. He could feel the nerves in his arm
from the fingers to the collar bone emitting an agonizing cry of pain to his
mind. A while was spent with him trying to convince himself that his limb
actually was there. He had to painfully move his broken arm through the empty
space where it should have been; searching for what he could not see. Finally
he gave up. It was very strange; he couldn't remember how it had happened. The
last few weeks, or were they months, were all in a sporadic daze that he could
not make sense of. He gulped, "How did this happen?" "The doctors said
they don't know. I just checked with the coppers, but they said they weren't
able to give out any information on the case." Jonny declared
disappointedly. "The case?" "Well it is quite
a mystery how your arm came off." Ben nodded slightly as
he kept glaring about the room. He was absolutely sure he was dreaming, or
dead. At some point Jonathan began rambling a long list of excuses for why
Mother and Sis couldn't be here, but Ben did not catch a syllable of it. His
attention was bought by a sensing in his mind, a nervous feeling that he was
actually alive, and that his encounter with doom was still not nearing a
finish. Dread seeped over his thoughts as this sense was affirmed by a glitter
in the corner of the room. It held his gaze until Jon left; assuming Ben to be
asleep. But Ben was far from sleep. He was looking upon his failure and his
doom. The arm that touched this beast was now separated from him. The thought
made his unreal arm hurt all the more. When it left, Ben was
torn between longing to see the thing again and hoping he never would. He knew
the rules now. He knew the total cost, but he knew that when the choosing
comes, he doesn't seem to know the cost well enough to deny a touch. Ben slept
a little, with uneasy dreams. He often awoke spastically to noises he thought
were death, but in fact were nurses bustling about. Then there was a scream. So
loud and agonizing it was. Then a thump just outside his door. So sudden that
Ben jerked around, afraid he would see his doom. But death was elsewhere and at
this moment doom was under another’s fingertips. The scream came from a nurse
who had stumbled upon her colleague’s body in the open hallway, head clean off,
eyes still staring. The blood quickly spread to the coin, who savored the touch
as it was camouflaged in red. This of course soon brought much commotion in the
hallway for the next few hours. Ben tried to look like he was asleep as he
listened to the police enough to figure out what had happened. He caught a
glimpse of Jones, and hoped the detective would leave him alone. He saw with
his eyes half closed Jones giving him a stern glare. Suspicion was in his eyes.
Could Jones actually think he did this, too? When the police left, he was
frantic, and tried to leave, but couldn’t easily stand up yet. The devil walked in
then. Ben nearly cried out. The devil looked just enough like the man in Ben’s
house those months ago to be recognized. But now every feature of his empty
body was cruel. A few of his demons stood and stared at Ben for fifty seconds.
One looked similar to a wolf, but evilish and it stood up like a human. “I will
explain to you how your end will come,” Satan said. He spoke then in a strange,
foreign voice. Ben could not move. “You will see your brother fall to his
master. He will die poorly, with no hope. Then you too will perish.” Ben wanted
to shout at him, or cry, or faint, but he was frozen. Finally, a single tear of
despair fell down his face. He will die just as his father did, as will his
brother that he so loves. Satan smiled. “Sleep well.” He said, then left. Ben laid there, still
paralyzed with fear, for some time. Eventually He sat up. A day passed with him
staring at the wall. Then Jonathan walked in. Relief flooded into Ben’s veins,
but it did not cure his unease. Jon made another smile. "How's the
arm?" He asked, immediately regretting it. Ben noticed that his
arm was missing. Again, came the unceasing tide of aching to his nerves. The
first stab jarred him, but he managed to blurt out, "You mean the lack of
one?" Jon meant the broken
arm, but he quickly said, "I guess so. Is it bad? Do you need some
beer?" "A beer'd be
nice.” Two mugs came back
with Jon. Ben accepted one gratefully. At the very least, it distracted his
body from the pain, and his mind from the overwhelming fearfulness.
Unfortunately, though, self-directed disgust has no such easy remedy. The
alcohol seemed to only make this worse. They of course still talked and laughed
as brothers do. Jonny did well in not bringing up his brothers’ lack of limb.
He didn’t even look at the stub like all the passersby did. Even the nurses
stared; it was an ugly, jagged wound, and extremely difficult to mend or cover
up. The whole time Ben
could not stop thinking about how much he loved his brother. This slowly began
to increase his guilt. His brother noticed, and was sorely confused by it.
Jonny didn’t bother to ask what was causing this, but he knew that the only
time he’d ever seen Ben have this same fear and doubt and possibly guilt on his
face was when their dad died ten years ago. The issue seemed far less important
than Ben’s physical condition now, though. Ben’s view was
somewhat opposite this. He was sad, and he was sick. He had failed Father and
himself. His father left him, and his brother was currently leaving. Jon walked
out into the mopped up hallway with promises of returning. Gone altogether, he
would soon be.
11 "What do you
want, Theodore?" She demanded. "First of all,
ma'am, I wanted to offer my condolences for the near death of your son. It must
have been very terrifying for all of you." Jones said. "Yes" she
said unconvincingly, "Jonathan is at the hospital now looking after
him." "Oh I, in fact,
just came from there myself. He looked asleep." Jones assured her.
"And I also wanted to ask you a few questions about your son." An annoyed, knowing
expression was on her face. "Alright." He began, "Do you
know how he wounded his arm?" "I've no
idea." She replied. "Does he ever
visit you from time to time?" "Visit?" She
laughed. "No, I haven't seen him since he was 19." Her face only
hinted of regret. "Oh, well what
was he like while he was living with you? Was he strong for his age?" He
asked. "He was
fine." She replied flatly. "He was a good boy; always did what he was
told, but really detective, if you came to ask if he killed Lewis, then
ask." This took the man off
guard. "Alright, do you think he killed your husband, ma'am?" "I," she
started, but then paused as if really pondering, then finally answered, "I
don't think there are any others who could have possibly done it. You know what
the police found. There were no tracks other than Lewis' and Ben's going in or
out of the wood. The only reason they didn't convict him was because he was a
child. This case is ten years old anyways. Why are you asking me all
this?" "I understand all
that, ma'am. I just wanted to be sure from his own family." She looked angry then.
"Why don't you talk to Jon. He's the only one who thinks Ben is really
innocent." "Then what does
he think happened?" "I don't think he
even ponders what happened. He just needs his brother, but it's highly
improbable that he actually believes what Ben told him had happened." The detective was
suddenly very intrigued. "And what did Ben say?" A look of disbelief
that he had asked that crossed Helen's face. "That a monster appeared and
hit him on the head and then disappeared again." Jones was a disappointed,
and he left politely to resume his police work. But he still didn't think it
was possible Ben killed his father. Something was out of place. An image of the
decapitated nurse outside Ben's room flashed into his mind. He shivered and
wondered if that was coincidence.
12 Jonny came back many
times the next month. Each time Ben didn't look any closer to being healed.
Indeed, he felt worse and worse always seeing his brother. The fear and guilt
of Jon dying never left his mind. And each time Ben was determined to warn him
of the doom, but never knew how. Being warned didn't help him in the end,
anyways. Jon brought a gift one
day. "They're from Mom and Sis," he lied. In the box were chocolates. Ben looked surprised.
"Tell her thank you." he said. Jonny nodded. An odd
silence followed that they weren't used to. There was simply nothing more to
talk about besides what they had both been putting off saying. He eventually
added, "She hopes you're getting well." He lied again. The statement
greatly lightened Ben's mood. He might as well keep up the lie. "She wants
to know what happened to you." Then Jon's eyes focused on something
glittering on the far corner of the window sill. He squinted, it was a coin.
That's funny; he hadn't noticed it before. It seemed like he was staring at it
for a long time. "That's nice of
her." Ben said suddenly. "What?" Jon
snapped back to Ben's reality. "You, or Mom,
wanted to know what happened to me." Ben said, "And what happened was
I went to live alone and look for Dad because She didn't like me or believe
what I said." Jon still looked
confused. "Oh" he said awkwardly, "I think she meant what
happened to your arm," remembering the conversation. Ben was silent.
"Ben, what happened?" Jon needed to know. He glanced back to the
sill: it was gone. Jon was getting a bit annoyed. "Dad died
be-" "No." Lines
of frustration appeared Jonathan's forehead. "Don't bring Father into
this. Why do you always have to bring everything back to him? What happened to
you, Ben?" The lines transferred
to Ben's face. "You wouldn't believe me." "And why wouldn't
I?" Jon shouted. "Because it's the
same reason Dad died!" "Dad died because
of you!" The statement caught Jon more of guard than his brother. That's
the first time he had blamed Ben for the death of his father. He had always
kept that thought at the back of his mind, not wanting to believe it was true.
"I'm sorry, Benny. I didn't mean that." Ben nodded, but he
knew his brother meant what he had said, even if he didn't want to believe it.
Tears were welled in four eyes. Eventually he said, "You’ll soon die
because of me, too." Jon's tears stopped
due to concern. "What? What's going on, Ben?" Ben replied as quickly
as he could. "The man killed Dad with his scythe," at this Jon's eyes
hinted of annoyance, "he cut off my arm, and now he's going to murder you.
You have to leave!" Jon was speechless for
a moment, then got up and left. "You're such a child. How do you still
expect me to believe that? Why can't you ever tell us the truth!" With
that he was gone, leaving his frailed big brother alone on his hospital bed. "No! You can't
leave! Please don't leave!" Ben knew this was the last time he was going
see his brother. "Don't touch anything!" Was all he could shout
before Jonathan walked out the door.
13 Two days passed, and
Jonny didn't return. Ben was without hope now. His broken arm was healing well
enough, but the remainder of his other limb was still bloody. Doctors tried
everything they could think of, but the shoulder would not heal. It had been
grazed by death, and was therefore dead. Ben started to cry. He was terrified.
He was a pathetic excuse for a human, failing everything he did. Why didn't God
let him die earlier? He couldn't be of any actual use to an uncompromising God.
He didn't deserve to live. Then God came to him.
Not in a reassuring, solid presence he'd felt before, but there nonetheless.
Ben did not know whether to feel gladness, anger, or shame at the coming of the
Creator. At this, the Spirit told him that He hadn't come back, because He'd
never gone away before. The Spirit asked him what he felt. Ben couldn't help
but feel a deep sense of love, but he said he didn't know. God said he wasn't
asking about what his body felt, or what his emotions felt, but what he himself
felt. Ben couldn't seem to place himself in his mind, so God asked him if he
would like to know who his self was. Ben felt a spark in him then, as if to
prepare his body for burning, but he was not prepared for this. This voice that
he heard was weeping:
14 Ben got up, and walked
out of the hospital, tears gushing like rain. He sped to his house, tearing off
the cast as he ran. He found his horse still grazing there in the back. With it
he galloped to the city as fast as he could. Jones and death both saw, and were
greatly intrigued. Jonathan looked very
surprised when his brother showed up at the door soaking in sweat, tears, and
blood. Ben hugged him tighter with one
arm than he ever had with two. He didn't care what Mother was thinking when she
saw him in her house. "I love you, Mother," he said, then walked past
her to Jonny's room. Jones got to the door then, very politely invited himself
in, and ran ahead of Helen. Where was that
wretched coin? Ben was afraid he wouldn't be able to see it anymore. He also
had no idea what to do once he saw it. Jon came in after him,
saying "What are you-" but then stopped, as his gaze hit something
hidden from other’s eyes. Death waited in ambush as vengeance came closer. The
wretched boy and his kin were almost here now. He would finish the entire
family off today, one by one. The boy coming here was unexpected, but the more the
better death thought, as it often did. There will soon be much blood. The coin now showed
itself visible to both children. Good, this should be very interesting to see
who will go first. Satan became a spectator as well. "Jonny." Ben
addressed his brother's sudden quiet. Then he followed his gaze, and there the
thing was. Ben was again immediately tempted to reach to the floor, and pick it
up, but he was able to put the thought out of his mind. He remembered his
brother's life was on the line now. Almost worse than the temptation, now was
the fear of death. "Jonny, listen to me," Ben said loudly, "You
cannot touch that coin." Jonny slightly
acknowledged him. "It looks so familiar." He said to himself as he
stepped forward. "No, Jonny! It
will kill you!" shouted Ben. The detective and Mother rushed in behind
them, worried. Satan quickly grabbed
this opportunity and whispered, unseen, in Jonathan's ear. "He wants it
for himself. Hurry!" Jonathan listened. He sprang over to the coin. Everything was moving
so fast. Ben had to make a decision, and he knew what it had to be. The fear
that kept building up could not stop him. He dove faster than he knew he could,
stretching out his arm to the coin before his brother did. Its retribution was
descending before he stood up, but he turned in time to face death. With his
only hand he grabbed hold of the approaching menace, despite its quickness, and
flung it into the wall behind him. Death hit a wooden beam, uncomprehending
that a human could move that fast. His weapon clattered beside him as he fell
to the floor. Slowly, the boy bent
down to the scythe. No time was wasted. He brought the heavy rock down onto
death. The creature writhed in pain, then stopped moving after a second hit.
Ben's world slowly settled to normality. He realized his mother was screaming.
Jonny was frozen in place. Ben looked down, and saw the coin still on the
ground. He picked it up, and closely inspected the face. Finally he recognized
it as his own. It was a strange version of himself, though. "This is your
flesh." he felt God say, and he almost laughed. When he looked up to his
family again, their eyes were locked on the coin, and they all looked rather
horrified of what they saw in it. Jones, Jonny, Mother. A long pause followed until
their eyes drifted all elsewhere, ashamed or confused. "Tell them my
Truth, Ben. Tell everyone you can tell." Ben was happy to. They had quite a nice
dinner after that. Helen gave the maids a night off after they cleaned up
death‘s mess, while her and her children all helped cook. Ben glanced out the
window just as it started to snow for the first time this year. This was his
beginning. "What's the day?" he asked his mother. "December 1st"
she said. End © 2017 Joshua Kepfer |
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Added on November 19, 2016 Last Updated on February 4, 2017 AuthorJoshua KepferAuburn, CAAboutI am a student at Sierra College, CA. I am 20 years old. Favorite writers: J.R.R. Tolkien, Ted Dekker. more..Writing
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