feelin good not lookin

past thought

feelin good not lookin good 

All my life, as I was learning and feeling good in and about my pious and sincere intentions; yet lying within them, even altogether with them and in league, in act, in effort, and in light of my, although unintended, however unscrupulous behaviors - in deeds I managed to learn ill-manneredly, dyingly, how to deaden my first fair and right conscience. Of course, so accordingly, being pricked in heart and soul, I sought to, indeed learned to, desperately prop-up my guilty, faltering and pretentious, countenance. In so much that my ill-actions became my faith, my trust: the way, the truth, and the life; hence lawlessness is my betrayer and willful betrayal. Sin, my very own desire, a faked integrity within honesty and humility.