I am. Am I?A Story by Kenny NA conversation within one's mind as that mind slips away.
I am what I am.
I am human. Or I was human. Am I still a human? Yes, I think I am. But what is it to be human? To be human is to walk and think and talk and breathe. But to think is to have a mind. Do I have a mind? I've never seen my mind. But I must have one. For I write these words and I think about them as I go. Or do I? Is it I that writes these things? Or another version of me not yet known to me? Why must I feel this way? Where has my mind gone? Am I still a human? Perhaps I'm two humans. Or am I just an animal? I do things in a human way, yet I remain unaware of these things I do, and which ones are human. Maybe I am just a being. A being in a body. Yes, that sounds like me. My actions a mere expression of my mind that once was, by way of this vehicle which is called a "body". But what is being? Is being not human? Or is human aware of said being? This is conscious. Wait, I've never consciously thought of my conscious. How then do I even know what this conscious is. Conscious. What a presumptuous thought. To think I know what it is to be conscious. To think is to be conscious and to assume that I am aware of this conscious is to be an arrogant human. Ergo, I am human. Or am I a being? Perhaps I am a human being. The very stating of which is to state that I am a human who is being. Yes, that's the one. That must be me. I am simply a human who is being. And in this practice of being, I begin to fail. My mind is leaving me now. When it is gone, I will cease to be. I will merely become a human. Just a lump of flesh and bone, melting into my chair. Goodbye mind, goodbye being. You will be missed. Or will you?
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Added on October 25, 2015Last Updated on October 25, 2015 AuthorKenny NMNAboutI'm an eternal optimist with hopes of infecting the world with a positive mindset and good vibes. Let's be friends...Cheers! more..Writing
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