Hidden Blessings

I feel as if

Wait no....

I don't feel

at all

nothingness

Emptiness

Clinging

Trying to resurface

Gasping for air

But instead the

Black Murky waters

of Anger, grief, sadness, dispair

Come along

where there is supposed

to be happiness

There is nothing

And I search

it is an endless search

For those Blessings

the ones I can't find

Those Hidden Blessings