tell me something i dont know

well i found this while cleaning out old notebooks. it's from last year. im not going to revise it at all! ill give it to you raw exactly how its wrote in my book. its an angry poem and i think the way i wrote it then best depicts how i was thinking at th

How dare you...

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how dare you try to tell him...

tell MY father that i don't deserve something

something i needed

something i have

something i have because im NOT YOURS

because my mother died...

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how dare you look at me

eye ME with disgust

envy what your child didn't have

ENVY me at all...

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Don't delude yourself

Just STOP...

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i'm the target

for your pent up frustration

you DON'T envy me for him

you PRETEND

Keep on pretending it's FOR YOUR SON...

him that you DESPISE me for

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you don't

its your own twisted sadism

 

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its your own

NOT HIS 

he never cared

its YOUR muse

an inspiration in itself

im just CONVENIENT

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so KEEP LYING to yourself

ill give it ALL away

every cent

my car

my clothes

anything you want...

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The day you can raise my mother from the grave....

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...is the day ill throw it to the wind

cause it never was about money WAS IT?

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it was about ME

about YOU

about filling a VOID

about pretending things could REPLACE her

PRETENDING you could....

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maybe if you'd tried...

YOU NEVER DID

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so i guess...

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it couldn't

and you won't

 

 

Author's Note

the caps and junk came from my notebook. i think taking them out changes the feel this poem had. I was too angry at the time to think of things quickly which is why the spacing is so jacked up. also the spelling should be pretty bad. what you have here is exactly what was in my notebook word for word, space for space, etc... so deal with it. i just wanted you to understand just how livid i was when i wrote this

Reviews

[Andrew Glass]

You really were angry when you wrote this, huh? Like you side, there are a few mechanical errors but they're easily overlooked. The emotion is so raw and unbridled along with the odd punctuation make this a really great piece. It would be a lie to say I fully understand the pain and anger you feel, but nonetheless, this is a great piece.

[laceyjane23]

Wow! I can relate to this poem! It is filled with so much emotion. It reminded me of when i was growing up, my parents split up and my fathers new "wife" felt the need to give her children everything and me nothing, i always felt that to her i meant nothing, i was not as valuable as her children. But i am glad that i did not let her get me down and I hope you were able to see all the great things about you even though she didn't seem to recognize them! great job!
LaceyJane

[Legion]

"Step" issues. Had them myself. Great piece here. I wouldn't change a damn thing. Kudos to you and your time with the pen.