What Am I Doing Here

Sitting here 

i ponder

Do I matter to you 

I wonder

I question my existence

It hurts more and more each pasing day 

Do you even want me near 

I no longer feel wanted 

No longer cared for 

Let me fall into that dark hole

Because I dont want to feel the pain anymore 

Its where I want to be 

Away from the misery 

Away from the judgement 

No one notices me anymore 

I feel like a ghost

I pass right by 

And no one sees 

Why am i here I plead

Wanting to open my eyes

Wishing for the one person to be here 

 Here for me 

But  you wont answer I fear

But i know you wont show 

The pain still remains

I wait for you

But i know you wont show 

And so the pain remains

Why can't anyone see 

Reviews

[william keepers]

Kelsey, I think I can relate to what you are expressing here. In a nutshell, is it like wanting to be and not to be and the ongoing battle between the two? The "dark hole" looks like a promising release, but it isn't. If you don't mind me saying so and correct me if I am wrong, but I don't perceive the "dark hole" as death, but rather a place of not living if that makes any sence. And when there one believes they are utterly alone.
A few years ago I made a conscious decision to become nothing. It took me about a year and a half before I decided I didn't want to go any further. What I learned is that when you become nothing, no one hears you. The journey back is much harder...
Thank you for sharing this Kelsey, it means a lot to me.

[Lover Of Words]

The dark hole is not refuring to death you are right. I am in a place where i chose not to be by yet here i am i can stiil see the light at the end of the tunnel. This poem has alot to do with trying to cope with the loss of a loved one and also not feeling wanted or loved by others around so i guess you can say this write has more then one meaning to it.
Thank you for taking the time too read it..

[william keepers]

My pleasure Kelsey, and sorry for your loss.

[Jordan's Back]

A very Dark Deep painful Write, i feel the Disparity and the feeling of loss and worthlessness in this piece and its profoundly Relatable. Excellent Work

[Lover Of Words]

Thank you my friend

[Tarry Franck]

Can feel the pain, the sorrow

[Lover Of Words]

Its deffentally there thats for sure..

[C.C. Marx]

So emotional I can almost feel the sadness, the longing, the pain I'm almost positive this has to do with the depression and longing after the death of a loved one.....wonderful job kelsey

[Lover Of Words]

Why Thank you my dear friend. You are right on the subject matter

[C.C. Marx]

You are most very welcome :)

[Erinne S.]

I think a lot of people in the world today can relate to this poem. You wrote it well and the emotion behind it was written with a deep intensity. I thought you did an excellent job with it and just remember that there is hope at the end of that tunnel :)

~Erinne

[Lover Of Words]

Thank you for reading!!

[Erinne S.]

You are very welcome :)

[InsanityWriter]

I can relate to this. :) excellent poem! -

[Lover Of Words]

Thanks!!!

[erica]

very good....maybe you could do some editing though
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other than those mistakes it is amazing very good read...:)