Goodbye

It doesn't matter how many days its been it still haunts me
It doesn't matter how many months its been it still hurts me
Whether its day or night sunny or cloudy its always there
It could be winter spring summer or fall its still not fair
Your face is starting to fade from my memory and I need
To remember your smile your voice and laugh so I feed
My brain with pictures of you and it all comes back
How you would get up early in the morning to keep me on track
Now I'm starting to lose my way and I need to let this go
Its effecting my everyday life and it will continue to do so
I have decided that there is no other choice I have to do it
I have to forgive myself and understand that you know it
My strength grows as i think about you voice telling me its okay
My eyes start to see the world in color instead of grey
I feel like time has finally started to move again
It may have been over two decades but I feel I can live again
I think of how much it would pain you to see me in this state
So I must pull myself out of this rough water and inflate
The life raft you have given me and for all these years this qualm
That I did not get to say these words I love you goodbye mom