the truth

The truth , -Kaylynn Wright ,

 

The mask on my face,

Is hard to break,

Years of hiding my emotions,

And they expect me to tell them the truth,

Do you wanna know the truth?

The truth that I love him

I wanna go away.

Blood appears on my skin ,

Feels good !

The tears are from YOU.

You want me to talk,

But everytime I try to talk,

You walk away,

I’ve already had too many people leave,

Your not worth the pain,

Iloveyou, but I cant deal with this anymore,

You chose her,

Instead of me,

You stick up for her,

And leave me in the shadows,

You want me to go with her?

Then send me.

I don’t want to be there,

To pick up your pieces when she leaves,

I’ve already done that.

You expect me to trust her,

How can I trust her,

If I don’t even trust you?

You tell me you know everything about me,

How can you know everything

If even I don’t know everything about myself?

How can you turn away,

When im crying for you to come back.

Its always just been you and me,

What happened to that?

When I was your little girl, not her.

I’ve got three years,

Then you lose me,

I don’t want to leave,

But all you care about is her.

Yes you take care of me,

On the outside not the inside,

She changes you.

I feel like you hate me,

For trying to push her away.

I feel like you regret ,

Having me.

I’m sorry I bring you pain,

But you bring me pain too.

The blood the truth ,

The scars tell me,

The past is real,

Are you embarrassed to have me?

I know im different,

But you always told me different is good.
you judge what I want to do,

When you use to say I can do anything.

I miss the old you!

Where you treated me and her same.

I know im not an adult,

But I’m still a person ,

You judge my friends,

By their past.

Its not their fault!

They are all I have.

You call the man I love a nerd,

He’s there for me when your not,

I’m sorry I ruined your life,

Im grateful you took me in,

When she decided to leave,

You tell me to get over it.

How can I get over it?

When that was the biggest tragedy in my life.

You think all I want is attention.

That not entirely true.

I do want attention from you,

You could be gone any day ,

And all I want is you back.

To the old daddy I use to know.

The tears never truly end.

Im sorry im troubled.

Im sorry im a mess,

That I argue,

But you only truly listen,

When im screaming at you.

Telling you to stop,

She has you wrapped around her little finger.

She’s your “little butterfly”

What am I?

Im just the bitchy daughter you got stuck with,

Iloveyou more then anything,

Why cant you love me too?

I feel like im ruining your life.

I can never do anything right ,

You yell at me for not knowing things,

Why can you teach me things?

Can you just be proud of me for once?

Sit in the bleachers for my games

And tell people “that’s my little girl!”

Is that so hard?

To support me?

Yes I know I can have an attitude,

But does that mean you have the right to scream at me.

I hurt myself because I cant tell you anything.

Im afraid to be around you ,

Because you always threaten me.

To send me away ,

That you cannot handle me.

I know she’s your wife,

But can you love me too ?

And I know your going to be pissed

When you read this,

But this is true,

You treat her differently

Like she’s a princess

And im a pauper,

I know I have nice things,

And im grateful for them ,

But imp not grateful for

The roll eyes, the annoyed voice

Every time I say something,

Sunday nights are my favorite

Because I get to spend them with you,

Isn’t that your favorites too?

You’re my hero,

You’re so strong,

When you could die any day,

Your nice to people

When they treat you like s**t,

Iloveyou so much daddy ,

I don’t want to hurt you.

I don’t want to lose you,

And I feel like were on two separate islands ,

Just drifting far apart,

Can we get close again?

Only god knows