cursed II

i don’t remember your birthday but i remember your favorite color
what shade of brown your eyes are with the sun in them
god why didn’t u come back for me
why did it have to be me
i couldn’t even hold out
had a weak moment but.
i couldn’t be happier
i wish i could be weaker and
ask u to save me
i don’t think everyone
get’s to be with their flame
you’re so perfect to me
i look for you in everyone
everywhere and everything
thank you
you taught me what i want
but i can’t get you
so i look for those tree sap eyes
any will do
i find u in him so i dont bother u
i burden this world and cant decide
i wanna die i wanna hide
what i dreamed of never happened
i took it into my own hands
now we don’t speak again
you probably laugh at me
for having so much love
yet so much pride
running into walls
trying to get over you
please show me that this wasn’t a mistake
i’m not sure if i want you to want me
or stay away
you couldn’t care less
you answered me so fast and got nervous on the phone
were you waiting too?