unfortunate company

it's 1:40 AM and i'm struggling to find any english word..

hell, i'm struggling to find any existing word,

to explain what it is that's causing the unexpected, un-welcomed, unsettling in my chest.

all I can say is it's marked it's territory and is desperately trying to make itself known.

maybe it's the way the people around me all move so fast

or maybe, as cliche as it may be, life is just finally beginning to weight down on me.

demanding to be understood that, it too, is over expectation. 

there is no such thing as looking up at the sky waiting for an answer,

as a raindrop coincidentally falls onto our cheek.

and there is no such thing as a constant.

and I think that's what this is.

No matter how hard I try to fight to keep people or certain things in my life above my water,

life deludes me, dragging them to be washed up on someone else's' shore. 

and the cycle continues.

before I can ever get comfortable. 

it's 2:19 Am....

Reviews

[Asante]

Many a night of mine written perfectly. That's what I see this piece to be. I relate 100%. Fantastic job here!

[xhannyx]

I really enjoyed this! Able to relate and captured my attention! Loved it

[Leslie Philibert]

I understand how you feel, especially the looking for words...fine job.

[krystle]

thank you :)

[MomzillaNC]

Life is change… we evolve or we die. It's easy to get bogged down in the minutia of life, to feel left behind from the ever-changing, new every moment of existence act of living.

I read your claim to be "made of coffee." I MUST have my vat-o-coffee every morning! You might like my poem, "Sweet Addiction," at http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/MomzillaNC/1403247/

[krystle]

yep and i've had to accept that, and I MUST have my 4 cups of espresso daily! haha

[MomzillaNC]

Can't get moving in the morning without my coffee! Fortunately, for me, my coffee is always waiting for me when I come down in the morning. My hubby makes it for me before he goes to work.

[Rocky Morgan]

You did great.....lots of creativity in this:)

[krystle]

Thank you :) no creativity though...just emotion!

[Rocky Morgan]

Your welcome:)

[Justin]

wow that was really awesome!!! u did great job :)

[krystle]

thanks I appreciate it

[Justin]

your welcome, i really liked it :)

[deleted]

Its always good to release and let it out....thanks for sharing:)

[krystle]

thank you!

[Mahlo Metsys]

I like it. It has a good purpose that readers will find, and the added touch with the specific times gives it a more relative personal touch as well.

[krystle]

thank you I hoped for that