Pretending

I begged the teacher not to call my dad, I promised i'll never talk in class

sobs coming out of me, I barley could breath

snot coming out my nose it was a catastrophe

she thought I was being dramatic and called anyways 

little does she know, she just sealed my fate

I couldn't go the rest of the day, not even one time putting a smile on my face

I dreaded the thought of going home, because I knew what was in store

The day is over,  It's time to leave

My dad picks me up and barley speaks to me

we get home

i'm frozen in fear

for I sense that death is near

The sound of his shoes stomping down the stairs

My heart beating fast, I'm so scared

he finally makes it to the bottom of the stairs

the belt in his hand, he grabs me by the throat

I follow his every demand

the rest is a blur, I think I blacked out 

next thing I know I wake up in bed and the birds are chirping loud

The next day I get up and ready for 5th grade

I go back to pretending and put a smile on my face 

I barley could walk I ached and bruised 

little do they know I get abused.

So  every time they call home, a little part of my soul is gone