The Devil Inside Me

(verse 1)

Four years since I been on my own

I hate the feeling of being alone

but i get nervous to be next to anyone else

am i going through this by myself

because that's what it feels like

so im swallowing pills in tight 

burst

to be honest that aint the worst 

that i am on 

still doing this heroin

with thoughts of suicide

but if you never feel pain how do you know you're alive 

can someone please tell me they feel like i do

or could you really walk a mile on my shoe

my whole life hurt is all that i know 

so i think that death is long overdue

i try to talk to god but he dont talk back

so lately ive returned to black

(chorus)

So long wishing to not be here

one thing has always been clear

i dont want to be here

so i am blowing smoke in the air 

trying to take my mind away

collecting so much in my astray

(verse 2)

I dont know how to deal with how i feel 

I just know the pain is all too surreal

locked in a prism

of the system

designed for riches

thats why theres much mischief 

from us kids who came from the ditches 

living in a setup

got me fed up

why the system so corrupt

and try to interrupt

the natural growth of my brain

believe its people aint born insane

its just what they engrain

in minds since we were little

implanted riddles

with a subliminal message attached

but i detached

just to fall back in

the damn devil tempting me with more heroin

(chorus)

So long wishing to not be here

one thing has always been clear

i dont want to be here

so i am blowing smoke in the air 

trying to take my mind away

collecting so much in my astray