End of My Road

I'm at the end of my roads with nowhere to go

living a life innna endless game is one I far too well know

how many relapses will have to past

before I get back on path

or i this my last crash

for so many years I thought of death

even thinking to pray to satan cuz I had nothing left

but then I uncovered demons already on the rise

it came as a surprise

when I uncovered all the lies

the devil has always had a home in me

just at the time I couldn't see

all the sin inside it drives my head

so I hope after hat last pill i'm left for dead

there ain't much for me here anyways

I guess i'll never know better days

Reviews

[I Am Svetlana]

We all choose and walk our own paths in life. Relapse isn't the end, it's only the beginning step to recovery and is it be more than expected. We can't expect recovery to completely heal us...to clean out our minds of the destructive demons that live inside. We have to find a way to bury them somehow. Just take life a day at a time and see where it takes you. Don't expect too much, don't give too little. Do what you can to occupy your mind away from the urges of wanting to go back to the old you, to relapse. Now is the time to uncover and re-draw yourself. Time to start over new. No matter how many relapses you may have, just gotta do what you can to focus on each day instead of the future.

[kayamon215]

I really think that's the best advice ive ever been given thank you :)

[I Am Svetlana]

Really? You're welcome :) it just takes time and recovery is its own battle.