I Just Wasn't Enough

With so few days left and too many thing left to say,
I'll say it right here, right now.
I tried.
I tried so hard to be who you wanted me
to become.
I really did.
But the fact is
is that I wasn't- I'm not
good enough for you.
I wanted to keep up
but I kept falling behind
and the last thing
I want to do is hold you back from
your true potential.
I've been hurt, so have you.
You said we could be a mosaic,
broken pieces placed beautifully together.
I believed you.
That was my first mistake.
I lost the sight of what was actually
important to me.
You let me fall into my despair,
telling me it's normal to not be happy
and that that's how life is
and that I should live the entirety of
my life depressed.
Days went on and I fell for you more,
but I wasn't getting better
and you said that that was fine.
You gave me false hopes
and lead me to fake dreams.
I got hurt more while you came out on top.
I broke up with you.
You begged me to stay.
But how could I?
You made me crumble my walls to the ground
so you could find my secret garden
and learn how to hurt me in the most gorgeous
way possible.
You smirked when I saw you after we were over.
Because you knew that I would never be able
to pick myself back up again.