I Didn't Mean to Hurt You

I didn't mean to hurt you.
I'm a terrible person, I know.
But the scars on my hips
and the cuts on my wrists
can't hear you begging me to stop.

My silver friends
cause the red tears flowing
from inside of me.
I can't just stop,
I tried, I swear.

The pain and numbness wells within me.
And I hope that by cutting
myself open,
I can one day
bleed all the demons inside away.

So please,
just realize that I'm really hurting.
I can't stop what's already begun.
I'm destroying myself, I know.
But I also know that this is how it was supposed to be
all along.