Running Into Trees

my thoughts on a day when i was feeling quite conflicted

 

RUNNING INTO TREES               do we ever really feel complete? do we ever really stop searching for the next best thing? what if we find it some day....then what? would be happy without that struggle? maybe it is the struggle we crave. the emotions. you are in pain...but....you are alive! you are feeling.crying and shouting through it all. and it feels good. at least you are feeling something-no longer dead inside. i wonder if being at peace fills you up as much as the struggle does? is true joy all encompassing like pain is? is there a way you could ever really know? what does it feel like to have a full soul? no aching.                      no longing.                       no emptiness. we comb through darkness............................searching for someone to fill us up what if you ran right into them and wound up hurt in the end anyway? like running to wrap your arms around a tree that was big and beautiful and looked so inviting - and  then winding up scratched anyway?  how much would your heart break then? just when you thought you had it all. but you will seek it out anyway. it is human nature to seek out the pain.  the healing process - the process of falling in love is an addiction that needs to be fed. and so it goes.