September 8, 2012

Crazy is as crazy does...

SMIF...

Okay, so on August 3rd (day before Mitra's birthday) we were supposed to have our final court hearing with lawyer's closing statements and get a verdict. The judge said he wasn't going to make a verdict and would need more time to review the case. He said he would mail us a verdict within 2 weeks. August 17th comes around. Instead of mailing us a verdict, he mails my lawyer all of the evidence I had submitted, saying that he needs more time to review the case without taking my evidence into consideration. (The evidence being proof that Eric is lying about living with Mitra, Eric is lying about enrolling Mitra in school, declarations, house information for Melinda's house showing that she only has 2 bedrooms to support my claim that Eric does not live with her and Mitra, etc etc) So my lawyer keeps calling the court to ask why the evidence was returned since it was submitted correctly. He got a hold of the court yesterday morning and the judge told him that he is still not going to give us a verdict until I undergo a psychological evaluation. Pending the results of the evaluation, all of my parental rights are effectively suspended. That means not only do I not get to see Mitra, but also I have to give Kitten+Charlie to their dad (and if he won't take them, they go to foster homes). I do not get visitation. Meanwhile, Mitra has already started school in San Diego again, and the longer she stays there, the more reason the judge has to keep her there to maintain the status quo.

Generally, the judge woulda needed a recommendation from an expert, whether it be a psychologist pulled as a witness or a court appointed mediator, to make an order for a psychological evaluation. This judge decided out of the blue to do this without anyone requesting it or recommending it is completely unheard of.

On top of all that, Eric's lawyer tried to request that visitations be unsupervised cuz he's tired of sitting around with me for 2-4 hours when we do visitation and the judge denied the request. I'm not allowed to see any of my kids for the duration of the psychological evaluation, which could take between 1.5 months to 6 months.

You know me better than anyone, my beloved SMIF. Do you think I'm crazy? Do you think I'm so crazy that I cannot be a good mother to my beautiful and precious children?

I am so heart broken right now. My heart physically hurts.

I miss hearing your voice. I miss having somebody in my life who knows me just as well as I know myself and can explain me better than I can. I miss you.

I miss my daughter and I miss my sanity and I really, really, really miss you.

Insanely Yours:

K