He Deserves Better Then Me

I have broken him, for the very last time. I won't get him back.

He was my shooting star, grazing my whole world
Creating for me a miracle, not all of us can see
We were one within the other but I broke that bond
I don't diserve his beautiful soul, he deserves better then me.

He has a heart that could love the universe
And a personality that can make a stage break
He was the man of my dreams, this beautiful soul
I held his heart in my palms just to to crush it for goodness sake.

I just want to throw myself off a high bridge
So that the pain I made him suffer will dissapear.
He's an angel that deserves the high heavens
Seeing things just perfectly, when I can't see a bit clear.

The only thing that has ever loved me for who I am
And I take it and cast it on out to the deepest of the sea.
Because I am a child, hurting deep inside my outrageous thoughts.
I don't deserve this great man one bit, he deserves better then me.

I need a noose, to help me from looking into his dieing eyes
For I was his world, and his world has crashed upon him
My heart is a dead soul in this day, this time
Just throw me to the ocean, I know how to drown but not how to swim.

The love we had, that beautiful thing love was
And I let it get away, let my insecure mind take me down
You can't expect a fucked up girl to live in a normal world
He was the only person who could see me, to everyone else I was a clown.

I will never move on, another love like this doesn't come back
But I hope he can find the one that helps him shine like the sea
Because he deserves to hold the world in his precious hands
Such a beautiful person he is and he deserves better then me.

Author's Note

This was straight from my sick heart. I mean every sad word. Because when everything you have is gone... you really don't have any faith left.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

What beautiful words..what strong images
how wonderful you make your case..thats what i say its a shame to leave all that beauty
of ability of word making,,like a jewellery..you will leave all that behind and stay so concerned with stupid earthly
matters..
He was my shooting star, grazing my whole world
Creating for me a miracle, not all of us can see
We were one within the other but I broke that bond
I don't diserve his beautiful soul, he deserves better then me.
He has a heart that could love the universe
And a personality that can make a stage break
He was the man of my dreams, this beautiful soul
I held his heart in my palms just to to crush it for goodness sake.
I will never move on, another love like this doesn't come back
But I hope he can find the one that helps him shine like the sea
Because he deserves to hold the world in his precious hands
Such a beautiful person he is and he deserves better then me.
i still think you are beautiful wonderful thing..with your words ..sweet poetry
you could build up a wonderful life and have anyone else to share it with you
to make a little for the pain you have suffered..you say you are ashamed of those who are around around you
come ..now you are the moon ..the sun that will make everyone close his eyes once they see this beauty as glorified as yours
i still have a great belief in you and nothing will shake that belief

[bluessadmood]

i have seen a Queen of poetry..of words..with few beautiful words of yours..
you could change a sad ugly worlds ..into one smiling and happy..one would just like to live in
oh i saw a dream in you..i still do..i was the first one who saw..and i stick to my vision
i would never let go..i see a great life lie beyond you..i feel pity you toss it aside
for you are young still and dont know how this life works..you think once you are down
then down forever ..but its not..life want to destroy beautiful things..but if you stand against her she can not
then she knows you are of a different breed ..a fighter ..a dreamer..would care a little about her
she will let you go..i know..i want to pump life into you again..i will try and try maybe one day i succeed..