Not Me

About Social Media and the negative effect

Looking through my photos but this girl doesnt look like me 

She looks like the girl that I want to be 

They comment saying that I'm beautiful

Boys saying that they're looking for a girl and that I'm suitable 

But I'm sitting here comteplating 

Thinking about all these words that these people are saying 

They don't even know who they are talking too 

If they saw me without my filters and makeup would they carry though?

I wonder what it would be like to just to be free 

And not be caught up on the social medias of my enemies 

I try to be me and let the real girl out but then suddenly I start to  shut down 

That girl is still lost and shes not looking to be found 

Ive been too focused thinking about what makes me different 

To realise its really my flaws that make me glissen 

Then suddently I start to  studder

My breath gets short and then my heart flutters

Cant control my thoughts then they all come racing out 

I feel like I'm living in a desert during a big drought

I look around then sunddenly the people start to stare

They got me wondering what I'm even doing here

I forget I'm not the girl they came to see

That girl lives online faking who I thought I wanted to be 

But I'm here now and I got her stuff all packed 

The old girl, Yeah.. shes never coming back! 

Cause thats not who I ever wanted to be 

I want the real girl inside to just stay me 

Now I can talk and I'm showing the world

That I'm living proof that social media truly does affect a girl 

Now that I can hear what im saying and the words aren't jumbled up 

I'm going to show the world that I really am that tough 

And that nothing can ever stop me 

From being the girl that I was born to be 

I just dont want any girls thinking that they have to prove theirselves 

Relying on the likes and comments of somebody else

Girl your beauty is beyond words I hope you take that into consideration 

Just remember that you are a beautiful creation 

And noone can ever take that away 

And it never gunna be worth it to stray 

Never depened on photo editing 

And if you think about it that s**t is really unsettling

Love who you are cause those filters arent reality 

And I hope that you have the slightest sense of morality 

Because one day the real you is going to transcent 

And its not as easy editing then pushing send.

Author's Note

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